“You shot just from watching him?What kind of kink is it?”
“Craig, I’m not gonna tell you right now.If you can’t even talk about giving me head without freaking out, I know you can’t handle this.”
“Is it illegal?Does it hurt?”
“No and no.It’s harmless.It’s just weird.”
“Then why won’t you tell me what it is?”
“You’re not ready to hear it yet.”
“Did Trish know?”
“Yeah.She wouldn’t do it for me.”
“Why not?”
“It was too weird for her.”
“Now I’m dying to know.If I got drunk, would you tell me what it is?”
“If you got drunk enough, you might do it, even if I didn’t ask you.”
“Come on, Eddie.I’m not gonna be able to sleep now.Did your ex-boyfriend do it for you?”
“Sometimes.”
“Why just sometimes?”
“He didn’t like doing it.”
“But you said he got drunk a lot, and if you’re really drunk, you can do it.”
“Craig, you need to stop.I’ll tell you what it is after we’ve worked through all this other stuff, after you can kiss me without going to pieces, after you can put your hands on me without losing sleep.After you’ve worked up to fooling around with me.After we’ve fucked.But that’s way down the road.You can’t deal with it now.Okay?”
“But youwilltell me eventually?”
“Yeah, but I won’t make you do it if you don’t want to.”
“If you want me to, I’ll do it.”I’d agree to it blind if he wanted it that much.
“We should sleep,” he said.
“Yeah, you’re right.”I had to work the next day, and I was tired.He must have been tired, too, but I didn’t want to sleep yet.There was something else I wanted to tell him.
“Eddie?”
“Yeah?”
“I like you.”
“I figured that out when you asked me to sleep in your bed.”
“No.I mean...even if I didn’t want you like that, I’d still want you as my friend.I’d feel pretty lucky to have you as my friend, actually.”
“No one’s ever said that to me,” he said.
“It’s true.”
