“Did I do something wrong?” asked Kieran.
Derek was feeling so many emotions. He wanted to hold Kieran in his arms and take away all his pain. Then seeing him on his knees made him want to edge him for hours, so he’d be begging for release. Despite his desires, he knew if they moved to quickly, Kieran could have a trauma trigger, and they’d miss their chance. This wouldn’t be a one and done for Derek. The past two weeks caring for Kieran had only deepened his feelings for him. He’d forgotten how much he got from caring for a partner. It shouldn’t have come from something so horrific, but he wouldn’t deny Kieran the comfort he was clearly craving in this moment. Any moral dilemma about their prior relationship was long gone.
“Kieran, can I take you to bed?”
He nodded his head and wriggled on his lap.
“Look at me, please.”
Their eyes met. Kieran was smiling as if he’d won something. This was his bratty side showing, which Derek would enjoy handling when he was stronger, but their first time together was going to be something different.
“Now, this will not be a scene, but I want you to use your safe word if you feel uncomfortable at all.”
“Why are we not doing a scene?”
“I want to cherish you rather than dominate you. We’ll have plenty of time for that another day.”
Kieran’s eyes widened.
“If I take you upstairs, Kieran, it won’t be a one-off. Are you okay with that?”
“I don’t understand.”
“Talk to me. Don’t worry about saying the words right, just tell me what’s on your mind.”
“Why would you want me for anything more than a fuck?”
Derek felt his eyes water. How many arseholes had this beautiful man come across in his short life? Derek answered Kieran’s question by kissing him again and gripping his arse. He moaned in pleasure, wriggling his hips and making Derek hard. He could feel Kieran’s arousal pressed against his stomach. Getting a firm grip under Kieran’s arse, he stood up and carried him upstairs. They had to take their time as they couldn’t stop kissing each other.
Once they were in the bedroom, Derek laid Kieran down, pinning him with his body. He looked into his eyes for any hesitation, but there was only heat. That was all he needed to take his mouth again, still taking things slowly. He wanted to explore every inch of him and find out what brought him pleasure. Had he ever had someone do that for him? He doubted it, given what Kieran had shared.
“What’s your safe word?”
“It was tomatoes, but it reminds me of him, so I think I’ll change it.”
“How aboutred?”
“That’s boring. I was thinkingdaddywould be a good safe word,” he said with a smirk.
“Are you being a brat?” Derek asked before he leaned forward and kissed Kieran’s neck.
“I just thought the word would snap us both out of it quickly.”
Derek snorted. He had a point. He licked Kieran’s ear, and he shuddered. Good to know. His neck was sensitive as well. He loved tracing the inked designs with his tongue. Kieran was so responsive, and he couldn’t wait to see what other sounds he could get out of him.
“How are you feeling?” he asked.
“Horny!”
Derek chuckled before pulling back and looking Kieran in the eyes.
“Take off your shirt.”
“Yes, sir.”
“You don’t need to call me that.”
“But do you like it?”
