“No,” he said, agitated. “What I’m trying to do is be fair.”
“Fair?”
“Kate, I’m about to ask you to give it all up, and I don’t ever want it to be said that I didn’t present the case fairly.”
It was almost too much, she thought, to have pictures of her life laid out before her and then immediately snatched away. “Give it up? What are you asking me to give up? And why?”
Before he could answer, Mark appeared in her peripheral vision, and instinctually she withdrew her hand.
Patrick felt the cool air on his palm. All for naught, he thought with a philosophical chuckle, looking at that gorgeous, strong profile as she turned her gaze towards Mark. He stood at the centre of the remaining wedding guests, riveting them with a story. But it wasn’t Mark to whom Patrick’s eyes went when he’d finished feasting his gaze on the full, knowing lips he’d never know and the long, pale neck, fringed with dark blonde hairs that fell from her effortless French knot; his eyes went to himself, albeit a much younger version, standing to the side of the circle, eyes fixed on Kate.
Ah, my friend, if only you’d find the courage to approach her now, before that fated foosball game, he thought, and ached with the memory of how that longing felt.
But though the decades had given him the confidence he lacked then, even now, at fifty-six, after years of being there for her whenever she called, of sharing every step of her personal and business life, of being the recipient of all but her most precious secrets, he knew he’d never have the confidence – ever – to believe he could possess her. And yet, here he was, certain that what he was about to do, an act that would not only ensure he didn’t possess her, but almost certainly tear her from him for ever, was the only choice he had.
He’d been given one hour. How it worked, he didn’t know, but the woman in the souk with the coal eyes and thehookahpipe did, and in exchange for a thousand Egyptian pounds and his silence on the matter of the stolencartouche, she told him the rules: Yo u may tell the girl what you wish about her future so long as her hand is in yours, though nothing you say will be remembered. After an hour you will awake as if from the worst sort of drunken indulgence. Under no circumstances are you to make contact with your younger self.
When he asked if it was possible to change what would happen – his past, her future – the woman pulled a long drag from the pipe, grinned a horrible, black-toothed grin and said, “Changing the world is an effort of the heart, Yankee Doodle, not the mouth.”
Then she’d mixed him his ownhookahcocktail and handed him the pipe. That was the last thing he remembered.
He returned Kate’s keys and other items to her purse surreptitiously. An instant after he closed it, Kate turned back tohim. He gave her a polite smile. She’d forgotten everything he’d told her.
“Oh, sorry,” she said with a start. “You were saying something about the … White Stripes?”
“The guitar player, I said. He gives it a sort of White Stripes sound.” Of course, at this point, the band had finished with Billy Joel and was a few bars into “In Your Eyes”, so the comparison made considerably less sense than it had before. Nonetheless, she pursed her lips again in that way she had, and he knew she was thinking of Robin, the miserable freshman room-mate he’d heard her mention over the years. He’d always been able to make her laugh with a White Stripes reference. He’d miss that.
He looked at her hand, considering.
“Kate, could I interest you in a dance?”
She felt the touch of his hand on her elbow as he led her to the floor. There was something both intriguing and protective about it. He was like the sexy uncle your girlfriend always wants to chat up at parties.
“In your eyes, the light, the heat. In your eyes, I am complete …”
He took her waist and held out his hand. She placed her palm on his, and a warm rush went through her, like the shower of sizzling sparks after a sky-filling firework.
She made a small mewl of surprise. “You told me things,” she gasped.
“You remember.” He laughed. “I didn’t know.”
Mark, disadvantaged kids and her mother’s cancer, the ideas tumbled through her mind – narrow, concrete glimpses of a future that had until now been vast and ill-defined. “You wanted me to give something up. What?”
“All of it.”
“What?”
“Kate, I don’t have much time.” He glanced at his watch as they moved. “To the end of this song, maybe a few minutes more, so I want you to listen. When that foosball game ends, Mark, my friend, is going to ask you out for a drink. Don’t do it. Tell him you’re tired; tell him you’re dating someone else, whatever you want. Just don’t go with him.”
“You said we were getting married. You said we were happy.”
His face contracted, and she felt her stomach knot.
He hadn’t said they were happy, had he? “What happens?”
He lowered his eyes.
“Patrick, you’re supposed to be my friend.”
