“You too,” I tell him, my words coming out slurred. “You too, Wade. Fuck. Move, please. I need you to move.”
“I’ve got you,” he says, his arms tightening further. He holds me as he slowly fucks me, pulling out almost all the way before sliding back into my body.
We’ve been so pent up, not only physically but also emotionally. I was expecting our first time like this to be rough and fast, unable to hold ourselves back. Instead, Wade fucks me slowly, taking his time, savoring the feel of my body. It nearly brings me to tears.
“God, Wade. You feel so good. I never let myself dream of having this with you,” I confess, barely above a whisper.
“Me too,” he says back, his mouth working a mark into my skin against my left shoulder. “Wanted you so badly but didn’t want to fuck things up. I was so scared for so long.”
“I know. I know, Wade.”
“I’m not scared anymore. The only thing I’m scared of is losing you.”
“That’s not gonna happen,” I say, turning my head so that I can look over my shoulder at him. Instead of saying anything else, Wade leans up so he can kiss me.
The angle is awkward and not very comfortable but that’s okay. All I care about is kissing him. All I care about is Wade knowing how much I want him, how much Ilovehim.
Wade’s hips pick up speed, thrusting into me quicker. My cock is trapped against the sheets below me, rubbing against it. It feels so good. I’m so close to coming already.
“I love you,” Wade says breathlessly between wet kisses to my shoulders. “I love you, Briggs. Don’t you dare ever leave me.”
“I won’t,” I say, declaring it like a promise. I don’t know the future but I know I’ll do everything in my power to stay withBriggs. I will fight and rage and war. Nothing is taking me from him. Not while I’m still breathing. “I love you too.”
“Fuck, Briggs,” Wade gasps out, his hips moving even faster. What started off slow is now turned into a frenzy of hips. His hips piston into me, over and over, stealing my breath.
“I’m close,” I tell Wade in warning. “So close. Almost there. Come with me, Wade.”
“Yeah, yeah. Me too.”
My body tenses with pleasure as Wade nails my prostate. It only takes a few more thrusts, my cock rubbing against the sheets beneath me before I’m coming with a cry. Wade fucks me through it before his hips are still as well. I can feel his cum warm my insides, leaving me feeling tingly all over with aftershocks of pleasure.
Fuck, that was so good. Better than I could have imagined.
When Wade rolls over, pulling himself from my ass, we both wince. His arms wrap around me and I find my face pressed against his chest, holding on tight.
Wade’s fingers dance across my back, my skin breaking out with goosebumps. I kiss his chest, right over his heart.
“I can’t believe we made it here,” Wade whispers, his hands tightening around me for a moment before going back to sliding up and down my spine.
“I know,” I say back. “Who knew we’d somehow find haven in all this? It feels like I’m dreaming.”
Wade reaches down and pinches my ass. “Not dreaming,” he says with the smallest smile.
“Not dreaming,” I agree, “but still, it feels unreal. Are we really staying here? Making a little community with Lawrence and Devin?”
There’s a moment of silence, both of us stuck in our heads before Wade finally nods. “Yeah,” he says softly, “I think we really are. Does that seem okay to you?”
“Yeah, I think it does. I’m afraid to let myself hope, but for some reason, this place makes me wanna. You know what I mean?”
“I feel the same way. Even before we got here, I’ve been starting to allow myself to hope, all thanks to you. You make me wanna hope for a better future. You make me think about having a future at all instead of just surviving another day.”
My heart aches inside my chest. I love this man so fucking much. How the hell did I get so lucky as to stumble onto him? How the hell did fate decide to cross our paths at the perfect time?
“We’re more than just survivors now,” I say, my voice choking with emotion. “I want to dream with you. We’re gonna live to the fullest, as much as we can despite everything.”
Wade cups my cheek, bringing my face up to his. We kiss the morning away. It feels so indulgent. Maybe that’s what life can be from now on. Maybe we’re allowed indulgences every once in a while.
Maybe we’re allowed to love and live and be safe.
