Two people choosing to build me up.
Stand with me.
To love me like I’ve never truly been loved before.
It’s something I’ll never take for granted because this is where acceptance starts—in a home, in a family that’s chosenme, that’s given me life.
And now, I need to start living.
28
DEACON
“Hey, what are you—” My words are cut off the second Tanner walks through my door, his mouth on mine as he maneuvers us and pushes me back against the wood, making it slam shut in the process.
“Shh…” he whispers, his hands skating over my arms and chest as he presses himself into me, rocking his hips as I cradle his head, tilting my own to deepen the kiss.
I can feel his desperation; he’s practically vibrating with it as he moans and whimpers before his hand falls to my belt. I reach for his, but he pushes my hand away. “Not yet. Let me have this.”
“Okay,” I whisper, unsure whatthisis before he’s lowering to his knees, and a wave of lust and hesitation crashes over me, each emotion warring with the other.
I want to check in with him, make sure he knows he doesn’thaveto do this, but the words die on my tongue when he pulls my length from my boxers and strokes me, his light eyes gleaming with desire.
He doesn’t look nervous.
Not at all.
He blows out a breath, the air shaky as it hits my heated flesh, the rumble in my chest barely audible, but his eyes flash with excitement and he does it again as he strokes me.
Fuck.
I assumed the first time Tanner had his mouth on me, he’d be tentative, but the man sitting at my feet isteasing me.His tongue peeks out to wet his lips, and then as if he just saidfuck it,Tanner licks up the entire underside of my erection, making my head fall back against the door.
It’s unexpected but it doesn’t compare to the way he confidently sucks the head of my dick into his mouth, his tongue flicking over my slit, his hand still squeezing and stroking me.
Fuck, fuck, fuck.
“Tanner,” I groan and he hums, his lips loosening their hold on me as he pulls back a little and then pushes farther down my length. “Fuck, that feels good, Sweetheart.”
It’s better than good. My entire body is humming with pleasure as he explores and tastes me, pushing himself to take more each time. The sensation is incredible, his enthusiasm mounting with every groan and grunt I make.
Unable to resist, I slide my fingers into his hair, my other hand fisted at my side. Tanner moans and swallows around me, his throat adding another layer of pleasure and making my hips jerk involuntarily.
He gags, and my gut fills with remorse as he pulls back. “Shit, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean?—”
“I liked it,” he manages, his eyes wild and glassy as he sucks in a breath and takes me as deep as he can. My fingers tighten in his hair as he owns me, his lip and tongue working in conjunction with his hand.
I’m teetering on the edge, my body tense as I let him lead. I don’t want it to end but I’m powerless to stop it.
“Sweetheart, I’m gonna come… Pull off before I?—”
I swear he narrows his eyes in challenge as he sucks me harder before freezing as I fill his mouth with my release. My legs want to buckle under me, but I keep my feet planted, not daring to look away as he gently releases me andswallows.
Fuck.
It shouldn’t be that hot but the fact that this is his first time, thatI’mhis first time, is something I will cherish for the rest of my life.
The primal satisfaction is heady, as is theminethat has become a chant in my mind.
