I can only imagine Blackmore jamming his dick inside her.I want to shoot him in the fucking dick.
One bullet.
Two wouldn’t fit.
“I’m going to kill him,” I growl, taking her hip and tugging her closer.It doesn’t matter if she’s pregnant or not, Courtney belongs to me.
“I saw much worse growing up.I knew I had to leave because the love had gone, and I felt unsafe.”Her shoulders slump and eyes lift.“I’m sorry you thought that we were pregnant.I didn’t realize you wanted a child.”
I didn’t, either.
I still don’t, and yet the thought that Courtney isn’t carrying my child has left a hole in my chest that makes me want to rub it.Which is ridiculous.
“Yeah, no,” I step away and run my hand through my hair.“No, I didn’t.But if you were...it, fuck, Court.I don’t know.It would have been all right.”
She presses her lips together and smiles, like she pities me and the entire situation.
She’s ashamed and carrying guilt for not just her marriage but also me.No wonder she wanted me to leave her alone.Adam would have made her feel like crap...
Wait a minute...
“Did Adam get tested?”Courtney turns away, and I lower my brows.“Did he?”
“No, but it doesn’t matter, Zander.It is what it is.Ring the doctor and cancel him before he arrives.Don’t waste his time.”
The fuck I will.
Hope just slipped back into place.I could be wrong, but I think the abuse Courtney has suffered, both physically and emotionally, may have forced her to take full responsibility for them not being able to conceive.
A narcissist like Adam Blackmore would never undergo a test that would potentially state he was infertile.I can’t help but wonder whether he knew.The guy is ten years her senior and may have been through this with his first wife.
“Does he have kids with his first wife?”I ask.
“Who?”
“Adam.”I frown.
“He wasn’t...was he married before me?”Courtney’s mouth drops open.
She didn’t know?Marrying in New York means you don’t have to reveal past spouses, nor is it easy to search.Still, why lie?
I nod.
The pieces of this puzzle are falling further into place; Blackmore meets a young model who appears to be young and fertile, then marries her.Not wanting to admit he’s the problem; he lets her go through years of stress trying to conceive.
He’s the problem.
Which means the test the doctor does in the next thirty minutes is going to have a huge impact on Courtney...and me.
The elevator pings, and we both glance toward the doorway.
It’s time.
