Kaidenawoke to the light peck of Dylan’s lips pressed to his own.
“Go back to sleep,” he whispered. “Just wanted to give you a proper goodbye.”
“Huh?” Kaiden opened his eyes with a squint to find Dylan rushing out the door. “Where’s he going?”
“Said Jasmine needed him,” Rus answered as he rolled over and filled the empty space in the bed.
Kaiden found Rus’ touch sweet, the gesture itself of moving closer to remove the gap between them. When Rus wrapped a thigh over Kaiden’s legs, his heart fluttered in anticipation, reminded of all he’d explored last night.
The taste of Rus and Dylan still filled his mouth, and the idea that he’d been intimate with them both at the same time made him buzz with excitement. Perhaps just oral, but it was still a big step. A big lots of things. Well, one big thing in particular. Something Kaiden considered as Rus’ rather large memberpressed against him this morning.
“I’ve never really done the morning after,” Kaiden playfully joked.
Well, he tried to play it off as comical, but he really had never experienced waking up at a hookup’s home the following morning. On the rare occasion that Kaiden messed around with another guy, it usually resulted in a quick finish, awkward farewell, and a likelihood that he never saw that profile online again. Whether from the guilt of the closet or the boredom of Kaiden’s performance, after getting off, the guy in question usually blocked Kaiden.
“Here’s hoping for lots of morning afters.” Rus kissed Kaiden, a light peck much like Dylan’s quick goodbye.
Then Rus buried his head in the crook of Kaiden’s neck, giving a little primal growl as he snoozed.
“Hell, maybe even some morning fun,” Rus said with a breathy tease.
“Oh, someone’s looking for a little relief first thing?” Kaiden grinned, running his fingers through Rus’ curly hair.
His hand slowly trailed down Rus’ body, relishing his firm muscles. Rus had the most compact, yet very sturdy, build. Like a tiny little tank.
As Kaiden’s hand worked its way down to Rus’ waistband, he paused. Every part of him wanted to reach down and stroke Rus’ massive cock, to take it back into his mouth, to feel it hit the back of his throat as he worked to get him off, but something was missing in this moment.
Dylan.
“Can we even…” Kaiden’s hand retreated. “I mean, are we allowed to mess around without Dylan here?”
“I don’t see why not,” Rus said, rolling off Kaiden and propping himself up on a single elbow. “So long as we’re not exploring with someone outside the three of us, then I think we should be allowed to interact with each other however we feel.”
“Right,” Kaiden said with a hesitant nod. “It’s not like it can always be the three of us together. My job, Dylan’s very busy career, your whole school thing.”
“I don’t think it’s so much about scheduling intimacy, but merely enjoying each other’s company when we’re together,” Rus elaborated. “I would personally have no problem with you and Dylan messing around without me because I trust you two still want me there when I’m absent.”
The words made sense, yet for the briefest of moments, Kaiden lost himself to the insecurity of Rus and Dylan having fun without him, of them realizing how happy they could be without him.
“None of that,” Rus said, cupping a hand under Kaiden’s chin.
“What do you mean? I’m fine.” Kaiden averted his gaze.
“You’re lost in your head, probably questioning where you fit into this.”
“No, I’m not.” Kaiden grimaced. “Is it that obvious?”
“It is when someone is paying attention, and if you haven’t noticed, I pay attention to you,” Rus explained. “Dylan pays attention to you. We do this because we care about you. So, whatever is spiraling in your head right now about not fitting in, ignore it.”
“Right,” Kaiden said, a bit more confident. “So, as long as we’re not intentionally leaving a partner out, it’s okay to be intimate? I mean, we didn’t know Dylan was rushing off first thing…”
“Exactly, but if, for example, you and Dylan continued messing around without me, then there would need to be a discussion.”
“Right,” Kaiden said with a light chuckle. “Because what’s the point of being a throuple if one of them is always being excluded?”
“Then it’s just a messy couple with no understanding of having adult conversations about feelings.”
Kaiden tried to ignore the doubts that lingered in the back of his head, telling him he didn’t quite fit with this relationship. His thoughts were his worst enemy, and he wouldn’t allow his own insecurities to sabotage his best relationship. His first and only relationship, but still… Rus and Dylan were always honest with him, direct, sincere. These doubts came from years of watching the relationships between his family and the years of feeling uncomfortable in his own skin.
