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She opened her car door, then hesitated, like something else was sitting on the edge of her, waiting. Instead of saying it, she stepped forward—not enough to close the space completely, but enough that the warmth between us was impossible to ignore.

“Thank you,” she said, softer now. “For last night.”

“Anytime,” I replied.

And I meant it in every possible way.

She searched my face like she was measuring whether that was just a promise about emergencies or something bigger. Maybe it was both. She slid into her car and shut the door. I stepped back but didn’t turn away. I waited while the engine started, while she adjusted the mirror, while she looked up at me one more time through the windshield.

Our eyes held for a beat longer than necessary. Then she pulled out of the gravel drive and headed toward town.

I stayed where I was until her car disappeared around the bend. She’d said she was okay, and I believed her. But belief didn’t cancel instinct. Something had shaken her. Something had been deleted. Something had pushed her body into fight-or-flight in the middle of the night.

I heard a screen door creak open behind me.

“Are you planning to guard the gravel all morning,” Aggie called, “or is that just a temporary position?”

I turned. She stood on the small porch of her trailer, coffee mug in hand, housecoat tied loosely at the waist, gray hair pinned up in a way that looked careless but wasn’t. Aggie missed nothing in this trailer park. Not because she snooped. Because she paid attention.

“Good morning,” I said.

Her gaze flicked from me to Becca’s trailer, then back to me. “She left already?” she asked, even though we both knew she had.

“Just now.” I glanced back toward the bend in the road, the gravel already settled as if she’d never been there. “I didn’t realize I was on a timer.”

That almost got a smile. Almost. “She okay?” Aggie asked, cutting straight to it the way she always did.

“Yeah,” I said. “She’s okay. She had a rough night, but she’s better this morning.” I paused. “Better enough, anyway.”

Aggie nodded once, like that tracked with something she already knew. “Girl’s always been better in the daylight. It’s the dark that gets loud.” She said it like it wasn’t new information, like she’d been watching that particular pattern for a while. “She tell you what’s going on?”

“Not everything,” I admitted.

“She’ll put it off forever if you let her. Doesn’t like feeling like a burden—hasn’t since she was a kid. She’ll trim things down to whatever size she thinks you can handle, hand you that, and hope you don’t notice what she kept back.” She took a slow sip of coffee. “You probably noticed.”

“I noticed,” I said quietly.

I’d always known that about her, not in those exact words maybe, but I’d seen it in a hundred smaller ways over the years. The way she deflected help before it could fully land. The way she carried things quietly until they got too heavy, and then pretended they weren’t heavy at all. This morning, she’d handed me the trimmed-down version of whatever was going on with that file, and I’d taken it because pushing harder would only have made her pull further back.

“She’s not a burden,” I said. “She’ll never be a burden to me.”

“I know that. You know that.” Aggie let the pause sit for a moment. “Does she?”

That question settled deeper than I expected. Because if Becca truly believed she was safe leaning on someone, she would’ve told me everything this morning. She would’ve handed me the whole truth instead of something manageable. The fact that she hadn’t wasn’t about trust, exactly. It was about a habit she’d built so long ago she probably didn’t even notice she was doing it anymore.

“She needs someone who stays,” Aggie said, softer now. “Not someone who tries to fix her or tells her what she should be. Not someone who disappears into the woodwork when things get rough. She’s had enough of those.” She looked at me steadily over the rim of her mug. “She needs someone who just—stands there. In the middle of all of it. And doesn’t make her feel like a project for doing so.”

“I’m not trying to fix her,” I said, and I meant it down to the bone. I didn’t want to sweep in and rewrite her life or solve whatever she was carrying. I just wanted to stand close enough that she didn’t have to brace alone. “I never have been.”

“Good.” Aggie studied me for a beat, like she was checking for cracks in that. “Because she’s always been better when you’re around, Levi. That’s not nothing. That’s actually quite a lot.” She set her mug down on the porch railing. “So stick around. Even when she makes it difficult. Especially then.”

“I will,” I said. And I meant it in the simplest way possible. I wouldn’t push her. I wouldn’t interrogate. But I wouldn’t step back either. If she needed time, I’d give it. If she needed space, I’d stand at the edge of it. But I wasn’t going to disappear when things got complicated. I’d done enough of that already, in my own way, and I was done with it.

Aggie studied me for another long second, like she was satisfied but didn’t want to make too much of it. Then her mouth curved faintly. “Alright then,” she said, picking up her mug. “I’ve got knitting to finish and coffee to drink, and neither of them are getting done out here.” She turned toward her door, then paused without looking back. “You’re a good boy, Levi. Always have been.”

Praise from Aggie wasn’t handed out lightly. It felt less like a compliment and more like a reminder of who I was supposed to be.

I stood there a moment after her door closed, the morning quiet settling back around me, and thought about a girl who trimmed things down to a manageable size and handed you that, and hoped you wouldn’t notice what she kept back.