Their hands are everywhere, toying with my nipples, playing with my clit, fingering my pussy. Giving me just what I need. “Fuck me, please,” I beg when I’m so desperate I can’t stand it anymore.
River’s chuckle vibrates through the room. “So needy for us, baby.”
They move me so I’m completely sandwiched between them. I’m not sure how many fingers are inside of me, the two of them stretching my pussy so deliciously. That’s it for me, I’m tumbling over the edge so fast I couldn’t stop myself if I wanted to. My body clenches and throbs, my pussy so damn wet as my orgasm takes over. “Fuck,” I moan as I thrust into their fingers, greedy for more. For the first time in so long I feel alive, like really alive. And so wet, my pulsing pussy dripping round my fingers.
My fingers? What the fuck.
I bolt upright, trying to catch my breath as I scan my surroundings. What the fuck was that shit. I glance over at his side of the bed, but Kasen’s not even there, and neither are River or Bodhi. His room is empty, it’s just me and his stupid oversized bed. My heart is hammering so damn fast I can’t calm the hell down.
That was just a dream. A fucking messed-up fantasy. With the three of them. Oh, dear God, what is wrong with me. I want to slap my subconscious for being so needy she just lets anyone screw around with her while she’s asleep.
You’re safe, Dove, you didn’t just let the men you hate finger-fuck you because you were horny. But even the idea of me getting off to them in a dream is mortifying after the way they have treated me since I got back. And the dampness between my legs and pooling on the sheets tells me I totally just got off to the idea of the three of them. It was just my fingers doing the work, not theirs.
Sweat trickles down my back and heat radiates off my skin at an alarming rate. I’m blaming it on the meds I keep taking, it has to be them. And this stupid summer heat. Mixing painkillers with alcohol last night was a terrible idea. Messes with my normally in-control head. I slump back into his bed with an exhausted groan, my hands tangling into his plush sheets.
My body aches all over, but it’s my head that’s giving me the worst trouble. I can’t think straight around these boys. Letting Bodhi kiss me was dangerous, letting River kiss me was all kinds of stupid, but me kissing Kasen, that was just plain fucked up. What is wrong with me? Like really, what on earth am I thinking with this shit. Not that Bodhi gave me any choice, that man was taking what he wanted with or without my permission. But I’m the one in charge of my desires in every way. I know my body inside and out, what I like, what I don’t, and until now, it’s served me well. I do not let men hold that kind of power over me. That shit is just dangerous, and I have seen lots of girls fall victim to lust, even love that goes wrong and crushes them when it all falls apart. I’m in this town for answers and revenge on whomever it was that turned my world upside down, that’s it. I won’t let myself be caught up in crushes from the past just because they now look like walking wet dreams. Or literally are my walking wet dreams. They betrayed me, and they would do it again. And I know better than to fuck myself over for a little cock. Or I’m sure big cocks, but either way, it’s not worth the hassle from the men they’re attached to.
When I have finished throwing myself a pity party, I toss my legs over the side of his bed and get up. Kasen hasn’t come back looking for me, so I’m going to take this opportunity to do some snooping through his stuff. If he has a problem with that, he shouldn’t have left me in his bedroom alone.
I’m actually surprised he did. Yesterday he was following me round demanding answers. He wouldn’t let me go to the bathroom without him waiting for me outside the door. It was over the top, but that’s Kasen. The more I gave him the silent treatment, the crazier he got about it. Bet it’s not often he can’t manipulate the answers he wants out of someone. But I won in the end, he had his cook make me athree-course dinner that I ate in silence because I’m childish like that. He wants to lock me up and demand shit from me, that’s what he gets.
With a quick glance over my shoulder, I open the door to his walk-in closet; his clothes are all neatly hung and folded. I guess I expected that. He likes to give the illusion that he’s in control of everything, but I can see the truth. That man is more mentally unstable than I am. He just hides it better behind expensive suits and a cunning smile. Most of his clothes are dark suits, either in navy or charcoal. Designer too, only the best for a Throne, after all. I catch myself inhaling deeply. His scent hangs heavily in the air in here. It’s an intoxicating blend of aftershave and something distinctly him. Danger? I’m not sure, but I know it’s dangerous to me, and I need to get out of here.
I move back into his room and pop open his bedside table, emptying out the contents one by one. A massive bottle of lube and a heap of condoms are the first things I find. What on earth? So, he gets lucky on the regular or hopes to, I guess. I’m not really surprised, a man like him gives off big dick energy. He knows he’s got something you want to try, and I’m sure the women of this town swoon over him. He would be very popular and get off on the extra bit of power that gives him. He’s King Kasen in every way, I’m sure. The bottle of sleeping pills pulls my attention. They are good stuff too, the ones Talon prescribed me when I was losing my mind from terrible insomnia after my dad died. An interesting fact about a man who likes to pride himself on being in control—he doesn’t sleep. I guess there is something even Kasen Throne can’t control. Well, that and me.
There is also a nice-looking switchblade, blue handle with an inscription down one side that reads Throne. That I grab for myself. If he doesn’t want to help me out with a weapon, he shouldn’t have left this one just lying around. When I pick it up, a Polaroid stares back at me. It sends instant sickness to the pit of my stomach. It’sone of the two of us, a night I went rogue and he took me out on his motorcycle. My parents would have killed me if they knew, but I was good at sneaking around and did it way more than I should have for these boys. But this night was different, it was just the two of us. I thought he was going to kiss me that night. Wished for it, but he never did. I took the photo with my new camera, not really thinking it would be significant, but this was the last night the two of us were alone together. The last time I trusted him with my heart. I thought I was someone special to him. Stupid teenage me. Why would he have this photo still after all this time? I’m sure that night meant nothing to him, especially with how fast he was going to discard me not too long after.
With a shaky hand, I shut up the drawer. Maybe snooping through his shit wasn’t the best idea, I now feel sick. I need to get out of his space. I take my knife and check his door to find it’s unlocked, so I head back over the hall to my own room and stash it inside my pillowcase for later.
I need a shower to clear the stupid Kasen fog that’s settled in there. Then I’ll work on how to escape this place before I have to answer any of his questions. That overbearing asshole has another thing coming if he thinks I’m just going to be some yes girl for him. Fuck no. I have a brain, and I’m going to use it before I get too wrapped up in this world. These boys are my past, and I might not know what my future is yet, but one thing is for sure: it doesn’t involve any of them. My only focus should be getting the answers I need.
Chapter 11
River
Dove dangles the keys to her combi in front of my face. “Get me out of here.” There is a glint of excitement in her eyes. She’s been ignoring all of us since yesterday, but maybe I am forgiven after all.
I snatch the keys off her, my grin widening. Some fun is exactly what we both need. I can’t stand being cooped up in this place any more than she can. “Where you wanna go?”
A hand comes to her hip, and she clicks her tongue. “Just so we are clear, this does not excuse what you did to me the other night. But since you’re stuck babysitting me and I’m bored out of my brains, you get to be my entertainment.”
I raise a brow; maybe not as fun as I thought. “Well, as long as that’s cleared up, sounds like a delightful morning,” I mutter. “You know I had no choice but to tell Kasen, right.”
She sighs heavily and grabs her purse from the counter. Closing the gap between us, she gazes up at me, the green of her eyes extra bright today, making her look more like her young self. It’s unnerving because the truth is I miss her like mad, and staring down at her like this, I get the urge to do what I never had the guts to do as a teen—kiss her till she crumbles and admits she’s mine. But I know that ship hassailed. She hates all of us now, made that pretty damn clear. Her hand runs up my arm, leaving a trail of goosebumps as she slowly drags it up, knowing exactly the effect she has on me. Then she grabs a fistful of my T-shirt roughly. “Everyone has a choice in the decisions they make, River, you just made the wrong one,” she snaps, bitchy as all hell, before releasing me and storming to the door that leads to the garage.
Like a puppy I follow her, opening the door with my fingerprint. Shit, I know she’s right, and if I did what I wanted to do the other night and take her upstairs to my apartment with me, I bet she would still be curled up in my bed right now. Happy. Satisfied. Not devising a plan to escape me when my back is turned. Probably stabbing me in it first. But it’s just not how shit works around here.
Kasen had already put word out on the streets to find her. Apparently, he was testing her to see exactly what she was capable of now. Lucky for him, she came to me before she got too far. Unluckily for him, she had her fun destroying property and his car first. But if you ask me that’s what he deserves, playing games like he does. I acted my part because disobeying a direct order, especially from the top, could land me in all kinds of shit. That’s how the system works. And I might be injured, but I happen to enjoy the delights this life has to offer, the power we all hold over the rest of our town.
Now I just have to work out how I can make it up to Dove so she doesn’t look at me like she wants to knee me in the junk every time she walks in the room and I’m there. That’s a look she should reserve for K. Me, I prefer the come-fuck-me eyes she was giving me at the bar. And after that kiss, I know it’s only a matter of time before I have her again.
When I get down to the combi in the parking garage under the house, she’s in the driver’s seat ready to go. I lean into the window. “Not a chance in hell, baby, I have the keys.” I chuckle, loving her confidence.
She crosses her arms over her chest in a way that draws my attention to her massive tits, in the low-cut tank and bikini top she has on. “It’smycar,” she sasses. “Least you can do is let me drive it after what you did to me.”
I rake a hand through my hair thinking on it, knowing how dangerous this girl is for me. I wouldn’t consider going against direct orders for anyone else. But how can I resist that face? She’s just so damn pretty, and the truth is he only said to watch over her, there was no mention of us staying put, and he knows I have shit to do for the beach bar. And he and Bodhi won’t be home till late with what they are up to. We can take the combi for a spin then be back before they know anything ever happened. “Kasen will kill me.”
She holds out her hand. “What Kasen doesn’t know won’t hurt him. Come on, Easten, live a little.” Man, her cheeky grin makes me want to live a whole lot.
