“So you liked it?” I can’t help but add.
Her face goes somehow redder than before.
“I mean…” Her voice drops to a mumble. “It’s…I…is it a problem if I did?”
I blow out a breath and shake my head vigorously. “No. No, of course not. I just wasn’t, uh…accounting for that in my timing, I suppose.”
Beside me, Cal shifts, a little uncomfortably. I’m
Gwenna’s eyes drift to the two of us and realization dawns.
“Ah.” She bites her lip, which is still deliciously pink. “I didn’t…right. So what would you…usually do, then?”
Jesus Christ. Would she want to watch? The image has me almost drooling: Cal sliding my cock into that perfect mouth of his, working me faster and faster and eager as always, Gwenna’s long fingers finding her…
But then I see Cal. The absolutely stricken look on his face. White as a sheet and stiff as a board. Staring at her.
And I know what he wants.
I know because he’s told me.
THIRTY-TWO
GWENNA
“Doyou want Cal to fuck you?”
Even in my post-orgasmic haze, Lanz’s question knocks the wind out of me.
Because…what kind of question is that?
I feel myself blanch. “I don’t…”
“He’s dying to,” Lanz rushes on. “He’ll never admit it, but I know he is.”
Cal, who’s been frozen beside him, suddenly comes to life. “Lanz,” he grits out.
“Am I lying?” Lanz whirls on him, stares right into his eyes. And I swear I hear Cal whimper.
Jesus Christ.
I go furiously, intensely hot, and I have to close my eyes.
Have I lost my mind? Have I lost whatever common sense I ever possessed? I sag against Callahan’s mattress, the pillow that smells warm and vaguely sweet, like his shampoo and skin. I really, truly only wanted to sleep here—to not be alone, to be with him, entirely chastely, and now…
God. What am I doing, what am Idoingthe day after my mom dies, fooling around with not one, buttwoof the boys of Camlann House?
Even as I think the sentences, though, I feel my stomach flutter.
With Kai, it was like some kind of dam bursting, all this buildingpressurethat needed to get out, and fast, however it could. With these two, it’s more…recreational. I can see them enjoy it as much as I’m enjoying it myself.
See Cal shudder into Lanz’s mouth as Lanz pushes their fingers deeper inside?—
My body clenches involuntarily.
Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck. I want to bury my face in the pillow and hide. I can’t just go back from knowing something like that is possible, that there are people in the world who will do that with me andtome, to just…not doing it.
“Yes,” I blurt out. If Lanz and Callahan were talking, they shut up instantly.
