He touched her hair before bringing his hand down hard onher ass.He loved the way she tightened and then relaxed.“Tell me when youknew you were submissive.”
She looked perfectly comfortable, her cheek resting on thepad.“Since my first kiss.I suppose I didn’t understand the terminology, but Iknew the feeling.I also knew how confusing it was.I was fourteen.It was adare, but I was attracted to them.”
“Them?”Garrett asked, his arms going across his chest.“You’re talking about Bobby and his twin?”
“Yes,” she replied simply.
“Bobby is not a top.”He had met the guy.Her best friendseemed nice, but he wouldn’t take charge when it came to sex.
“No, but his twin is, you bastard,” she replied with alittle pout.
He slapped her ass again and was about to give her a lectureabout politeness when he realized why she’d done it.He wasn’t going fastenough for her.He spanked her again.“Sorry, sweetheart.I was taking my timewith the exchange.You keep talking.We want to know everything.”
She needed the physical sensation to feel safe enough totalk.Needed this to be part of the play.He could give that to her.
Garrett relaxed a bit and put a hand on her hair.“So youcontinually find yourself in situations with a top and a switch?”
Keane brought his hand down again, loving how she responded.
“Bobby’s not a switch.I don’t think he’s explored enough toknow what he is, but Will is definitely a top.It was weird when he kissed mebecause it was Bobby I loved.Will and I got along fine, but there wasn’t areal spark between us.Until then, and I’m fairly certain I would have felt thespark from any dominant partner.But it was confusing to kiss the boy I thoughtI loved and feel nothing and get all hot and bothered by the one I knew Ididn’t.”
Another set of smacks and her cheeks were getting a nicerosy sheen to them.“You can be attracted to someone and not love them.”
She smiled, wiggling her ass a bit which let him know not tostop.“I think there’s a whole trope about that.Enemies to lovers.I love toread it, but I have seen too many enemies try to come on to me for the wrongreasons that I don’t want it in real life.I like friends to lovers more.”
Another smack, and she was starting to relax.She neededthis.It wasn’t merely about sex.Her body took this kind of pain and turned itinto something that relaxed her, allowed her to let go.
“You knew Bobby was gay when he kissed you?”He wanted allthe clarifications.He needed to know if she was still in love with a man shecouldn’t have.A man who might love her in one way but couldn’t give her whatshe needed.
“He never lied.I lied to myself.”
This was where the discipline came in.Being a Dom was beingpart therapist.A hard smack sounded through the air.“You were fourteen.Itwas puppy love, and that is a sweet kind of love.”Another smack.“You wereyoung.You loved him.He had a twin who fit into the lifestyle you were borninto.You understood that kind of relationship, so of course you wanted it.Youdid not lie to yourself.You were too young to understand.”
He saw the tears in her eyes, but he didn’t think they werefrom physical pain.She needed to hear the truth because sometimes it was hardfor the heart to understand.A woman like Olivia would take the responsibilityon herself.She was the type of woman who took more responsibility thannecessary because she was in control all the time.
So when her girlhood dreams imploded, she wrongly blamedherself.
“I’m fine with it.I have been for a long time,” she gaspedbetween spanks.
“You’re fine with him.You’re not fine with yourself,”Garrett said quietly.“You were fourteen.When did you date that asshole Jason?That guy who was the absolute opposite of your kind, intelligent dream boy.”
Garrett was no dummy.This was exactly where he wanted togo.
Olivia stopped.“You think I…oh, I did.I did do that.Andthen I dated Scott because he fit into my life.I’ve never dated just because Ifit with someone.”
“Until one night when you picked two guys because theylooked good to you,” Garrett concluded.
“I always thought…” She stopped.
He could finish it for her.“You thought your instincts areall wrong and that anyone you want is going to end up being bad for you.Butthat’s not true.No one has great instincts when it comes to our partners.Relationships form for different reasons.Some fall apart.Some stick togetherbecause everyone works hard to make sure they grow together instead of apart.”
“Is that what happened with you and Garrett?”
Such an innocent-sounding question.And so loaded, but hepromised he would answer.
She needed something to help her get through hervulnerability.So did he.“Garrett, could you get the plug?”
He slapped his hands together.“Thought you’d never ask.”
