So this was her new stepmother? Not that she would ever acknowledge any form of family connection with Amelia. They had never met and nor, under normal circumstances, would they ever have cause to. Amelia had read about her father’s second marriage a few years ago. He had swiftly tied the knot with another woman as soon as he was able, so the fact that he had a wife should not be such a surprise, but it was a surprise to meet the woman he had chosen. The Viscountess was much younger than her father; in fact, Amelia suspected that she was only a few years older than she herself was. But then again, as her father had become increasingly obsessed with the idea of having a son, she supposed it made sense that he would choose such a youthful bride to provide him with one. Whether or not she had already done so, Amelia had no clue. If she had, such gossip had not yet reached Bath.
If she hadn’t...
Amelia felt a strange stab of pity for the woman. Her father was not a particularly forgiving person and after a few childless years he would no doubt make his latest wife’s life as miserable as he had made her mother’s. When she had been a little girl, Amelia remembered that her parents had been happy. Her father had doted on his beautiful heiress and, although it was obvious that he would have much preferred a son and heir, he had not been the cold, indifferent father that he had turned into. However, as the years had gone on and her mother had struggled to carry another child, her father’s affection for her began to wane. Sensing his withdrawal, his wife had resorted to all manner of quack cures to help her to fall pregnant. She’d been so obsessed with keeping her husband that Amelia had become almost invisible.
By the time Amelia was twelve, and still anonlychild, he had lost patience and turned on his wife with vitriol. It made no difference that each successive pregnancy and subsequent miscarriage had made her weaker, nor did he notice the vibrant light go out of her eyes as she had withdrawn further into herself in her desperate attempt to please the man she still loved. By then, he had wanted shot of his barren wife and had stopped at nothing to ensure that he got his way.
In the end, he had happily sacrificed his only daughter to do it and then washed his hands of the pair of them. The hastily, but conveniently, procured annulment not only erased the marriage, it erased Amelia’s legitimacy. Of course, because the law was a complete ass, that also meant her father cheerfully kept the tiny fortune that his former wife had brought to the marriage without even considering that immoral. Amelia’s American grandparents were dead and their beautiful daughter had long been forgotten by Philadelphia society. What difference did it make if he kept the money? It had become his money the very moment that they’d married and he had done his best to be a good husband. It was hardly his fault that Amelia’s mother had let him down. Viscounts needed heirs, after all—any gentleman would understand that. Perhaps this new wife would be better at doing her duty?
The young Viscountess was obviously keen to make a good impression on the Dowager Duchess of Aveley. ‘Your son is a truly great statesman, Your Grace. I know that my husband is a great admirer of his work. He has supported him in the House on numerous occasions.’
Her father only supported causes that feathered his own nest, but he was no fool. Viscount Venomous knew the importance of keeping on the right side of those who wielded power. It made her feel a little queasy to think of the Duke exchanging polite conversation or, worse, camaraderie with her awful father. That really would be unforgivable—but not beyond the realms of possibility. They were both lords and her father also had very definite opinions on what did and did not make a good wife. And choosing the wrong one or, as her father had, a barren one was unthinkable. How had the Duke put it in his stupid book?
Such a wife will ultimately turn out to be a hindrance to you and you will rue the day you entered into the Blessed Union.
The Duke of Aveley, like all titled men, would probably feel sympathetic towards her father and condone the despicable course of action he’d taken to remedy the situation. She felt a stab of pity for the future Duchess of Aveley. That unfortunate woman would have a great deal to live up to.
‘I am sure Bennett is grateful for the support. These are taxing times for the government. He spends a great deal of time trying to convince his fellow lords to support his policies. If only a few more of them were as reasonable and supportive as your husband.’ The Dowager was smiling warmly at the interloper and Amelia desperately wanted to contradict the good opinion she held of her father—but to do so would be churlish and impertinent and against Lady Worsted’s express instructions.
‘It is such a shame that they have not had the opportunity to discuss your son’s ideas in greater depth. Conversation in Parliament or at a ball is always so brief. Would you think me too forward if I extended an invitation for you all to dine one evening at Bray House? I know my husband would be grateful to hear more of His Grace’s plans.’
Amelia knew a great deal about Viscount Venomous’s politics and was quite certain that it did not extend to philanthropic ideas such as cleaning up the slums. However, her father would see it as a great coup to have the influential Duke of Aveley sitting at his table, and obviously his young wife knew it.
‘I should like that. However, I will have to check with Bennett. His commitments to Parliament are quite excessive at the moment and he struggles to find the time to attend too many social engagements. If you forward an invitation to the House, then I am sure that he will consider it.’
Her mother’s replacement was not prepared to give up the prize that easily. ‘Better still, why don’t we wait until the man in question returns and I will ask him when it would be convenient?’ The Dowager’s eyes widened slightly at the young woman’s presumptuousness, but she nodded her agreement nevertheless. ‘If I go and fetch my husband now, I am certain we can agree on a suitably convenient date.’
Amelia felt sick. Throughout the entire exchange she had not considered the fact that her father was here. The very last person she ever wanted to see again was that man. Despite that, she had carefully planned what she would say to him if their paths ever crossed again. There had been many years to perfect the exact words that she wanted to say to him. The speech was short and to the point.
You robbed my mother of her soul and her fortune and then you cast her out with nothing. Her blood is on your hands.
But here, in a room full of people and in the company of the Dowager and Sir George, she was not entirely sure that she was strong enough to face him. Not without being adequately prepared and with her heart hardened. She did not want to allow sadness or anger to cause her words to falter. She would not give him that satisfaction. At this precise moment, tears were already prickling the corners of her eyes and she would never cry in front of him.
Worse still, he would not take her presence well. There would very probably be a horrendous scene, furious words would be exchanged and it would be Amelia who would ultimately suffer. To protect a fellow aristocrat, she would be unceremoniously removed from the ballroom and might even end up losing her job. Whilst Lady Worsted knew who her father was and was accepting of that fact, the scandal that surrounded the end of his marriage to her mother would likely be enough to encourage the Duke to insist that his aunt sever all ties with her. That was why Lady Worsted had insisted on secrecy, after all—to protect her precious nephew from the taint of any scandal. Amelia would be left with nothing, again, and be forced to pick up the shattered pieces of her life for a third time. If she had to confront her father, it must be on her terms and at a time of her choosing. This was not it.
As soon as the Viscountess hurried away, Amelia excused herself from the Dowager and Sir George and rushed from the ballroom with her face cast down. There was no question that her father might not recognise her if he happened to see her. Even after four years, he would know her instantly. Amelia was the mirror image of her mother. It was one of the reasons he had grown to dislike her so very much. And that feeling was mutual.
Only when she was certain there was nobody watching did she dart down a dark corridor. She needed a few minutes alone to calm herself, then she would find Lady Worsted and tell her why she had to leave. Her employer, she knew, would help her to escape.
She soon found herself in a darkened parlour. Realising that she was far too agitated to simply sit, Amelia grabbed a folded woollen lap blanket from one of the chairs, draped it tightly around her shoulders and let herself out of the French windows that overlooked the garden. A walk might soothe her frayed nerves and give her time to think about her unexpected predicament. Fortunately, she still had the presence of mind to leave the door slightly ajar before she stalked briskly into the cold winter night, but even at that brisk pace the unpleasant memories still chased her into the garden.
Chapter Nine
The sensible gentleman does not select his bride with haste. Take your time, compare the lady with many others, and the superior attributes of the most suitable candidate will quickly make themselves apparent...
Bennett stared up at the stars and sighed. This was not how he had expected things to be. For over a year he had stalwartly taken his father’s advice and done his best to find himself the perfect wife—and he was apparently no closer to finding her than he had been at the start. Only then he had been hopeful. He had followed every sensible edict to the letter, so keen to honour the memory of his father by marrying a woman whom he would have chosen to be his daughter-in-law, yet now it was his own lack of enthusiasm that appeared likely to sabotage all of that hard work. A lack of enthusiasm for the seemingly perfect women he had found and, if he was completely honest with himself, a selfish refusal to settle for something that did not feel intrinsically right for him. Priscilla, Cecily and the other Potentials met every one of his father’s criteria—but he did not feel a single drop of passion for any one of them. If he never saw any of them ever again, he doubted he would even notice their absence. Surely that was not right?
Yet Miss Mansfield, with her sharp tongue and common connections, already occupied his thoughts far more than those other women had collectively managed in over a year. She also reminded him that he was just a man. So often nowadays he was so busy trying to be the perfect politician that he had forgotten that he was a man first and, as such, prone to the basic urges that all of God’s creatures had in common. The most obvious manifestation of this realisation was lust. He experienced it every single time he saw her and almost every time he thought of her. Which, he conceded, was rather a lot. Bennett could not recall any other woman who ever had that effect on him. But lust was only part of his problem.
For some inexplicable reason, the arrival of Miss Mansfield in his life made him feel somehow dissatisfied with it. He felt lonely. An odd emotion that he had never, ever considered before, yet he recognised it for what it was. It was so overpowering that it threatened to swamp him. Worse, Bennett had realised that he had been achingly lonely for years. Suddenly, he desperately wished that he had somebody to share his life with—not just an adjunct that he called his wife. The future Duchess of Aveley had to be more than that. He wanted someone whom he could share the daily trials and tribulations with, someone to laugh with and argue with. Wake up with. Talk to. He could not imagine that person ever being one of the women he had thus far considered as his potential bride.
It might well have been foolhardy and ill-considered, but the thing he had enjoyed most about the ride home with his aunt’s companion had been the enforced intimacy. If he ignored the surge of desire he had experienced, the conversation had been a revelation. Already he knew that Miss Mansfield had a keen sense of right and wrong, had made the best of her life after the tragic death of her mother and was fiercely independent. The woman had strong opinions and was not afraid to voice them. It was so refreshingnotto be agreed with all of the time. Miss Mansfield certainly made no attempts to court his good opinion and he quite admired her for that too. He found sparring with her hugely entertaining—which meant that already she was far more intriguing and interesting than any of the Potentials. Totally unsuitable, of course, because there were just too many things about Miss Mansfield that clashed with everything he fundamentally needed his future wife to be. But definitely intriguing.
However, his reaction to her had provided him with food for thought. His perfect wife needed attributes he had not previously considered and his father had not foreseen. Her own opinions, within reason, some sort of uniquely defining aspect of personality that set her apart from all other women and a fondness for sarcasm. And he wanted to desire her. That attribute now had to be top of his list because his hunger for Miss Mansfield would not go away unless he could find another woman that he wanted in his bed as much as he did her.
Which left him, frustratingly, right back where he’d started and no closer to finding a suitable wife now than he was when he had foolishly written that blasted book. Miss Mansfield had even managed to sully his father’s sensible advice. From the moment he had been born, Bennett had relied on those knowledgeable words to steer him. Once she had pointed out that single contradiction, he had found more. The book was most descriptive on the importance of manners, good breeding and the role of a dutiful wife but made no mention of qualities that he now personally wished for in his marriage. Like mutual interests, a shared sense of humour and desire. If he did not find any of the Potentials even remotely interesting, what would they spend a lifetime talking about? Or would they coexist under the same roof in polite indifference? In which case, was he doomed to feel lonely for ever? Surely a marriage should be more than that? Surely his parents’ marriage had been more than that?
But his father had always stated that emotions were a woman’s indulgence and that Bennett should not waste any time on them. But, no matter how hard he had tried to suppress that aspect of his character, to his eternal shame he experienced them nevertheless.
