I smiled breathlessly at him, and something that felt a whole lot like affection swept through my body. When we joined this time, it was slow. I sank onto him inch by inch, the whole time staring into his impossibly blue eyes and allowing myself to drown in their depths.
When Ezra was fully sheathed in me, I felt Cole prod at my ass, his cock slicked and ready. His fingers ran down my spine as he smoothly pressed inside, stretching me to accommodate his generous size.
“Oh fuck,” he moaned, his voice a broken rasp.
I gasped at the foreign sensation of two men penetrating me at once, their hard lengths making me feel deliciously full. They waited until I nodded before starting to move.
My eyes rolled to the back of my head at the mind-melting pleasure. The mere thought of doing this had made me climax within minutes, and now that I was experiencing the real thing, I didn’t think I’d last more than thirty seconds. Feeling both of them inside me took me right to the edge.
Despite Cole’s earlier words, I felt very finite in that moment. I knew exactly where I ended and they began. But as they pumped into me at the same time, their hot, damp bodies writhing below and above me, all thoughts disappeared. It was then that something clicked inside my empty mind. Not a thought, but a deeper understanding. Alone, I was finite, but together, we became infinite.
Even as my orgasm threatened to erupt across every cell of my body, tears pricked at the back of my eyes. I wasn’t thinking, but I was feeling entirely too much. I was no longer in control of anything, and it terrified me.
Ezra slowed down when he saw the change in my expression. “What’s wrong?” he panted, his biceps flexing as he squeezed my waist with his hands.
Cole halted his movements at the question.
“I’m— I’m feeling too much,” I admitted, a tear spilling down my cheek.
Ezra’s expression softened as his fingers brushed at my face. “Don’t fight it, Adeline. Let it all go. We’ll be there with you on the other side.”
There was something so true in the tone of his voice and the shine of his eyes, that I nodded and did exactly that.
I ground on them and allowed myself to let go. We slammed into each other until all of my barriers broke and I collapsed on top of Ezra, moaning and shivering as the best orgasm of my life rippled through me.
Moments later, Cole let out a loud groan and bit my shoulder as he came inside my ass. Ezra followed soon after, pumping into me as he rode his own high, his head thrown back and mouth parted.
I trailed the drummer’s lower lip with my thumb, mesmerized by how his flawless features changed in ecstasy. Even with this, my fantasy didn’t live up to the real thing.
Their cum dripped down my thighs when we finally untangled from each other minutes later and I crossed the room to the en suite bathroom to get cleaned up. My legs were wobbly, my muscles as sore as if I had just done a hard workout.
I was startled by my reflection in the mirror. Was it the lighting or did my eyes shine brighter? There was something different about my skin, my face… I was flushed with a rosy glow, but it wasn’t just that. I felt different. More alive, more real.
Cole appeared behind me and looked at the reflection, his eyes aglow with curiosity.
“Didn’t I tell you there would be a repeat?” He kissed my shoulder. “Tell me that’s not a woman who has found something she likes.”
Something I liked? That was a grossly inadequate way of describing what I felt at the moment. I was like a junkie who’d just gotten the first fix of the drug that would ruin her life. Whatever I’d hoped to get out of my system had only buried itself deeper, and now I was faced with the unenviable task of ripping it out without a single painkiller. I thought back to Silas and Abel. What would they think if they knew what we had just done?
What would it have been like if they had been there with us?
My hands shook at the thought. Ruined. I was ruined. Even now, after having been fucked by two of their friends, I was still thinking of the other two men.
I leaned back into Cole, defeated, and let a sigh escape my bruised lips. His arms wrapped around me as he continued to trail light kisses across my skin, oblivious to the turmoil I was battling inside.
“What about you?” I asked, my voice no more than a whisper. “Did you find anything?”
He lifted his chin to meet my gaze in the mirror. “Everything I’ve ever searched for.”
16
ADELINE
I was nestledbetween the two of them in Ezra’s bed, my head in the crook of the drummer’s arm, and my legs tangled with Cole’s. Both of them were softly stroking my skin, their tender affection acting as a soothing balm to my fractured soul.
“I’m starving,” Ezra mumbled into my hair. “Should we order something before you have to go to work, Adeline?”
“I have the evening off since Frankie switched her Friday shift with me.”
