“I loved you and wanted you. I knew I was attracted to some of the brothers in the club, but it wasn’t very strong so I ignored it. I didn’t think that I needed that part of me to be fulfilled because I had you. You’re everything I’ve ever wanted in a woman, but then I couldn’t stop but wondering what it would feel like, and the guilt started to come. With the guilt came the drinking, and I didn’t want to look at you in the eyes and admit I was thinking about someone else while we were married,” he chokes out.
I take in the expression on his face. He looks like he has the weight of the world on his shoulders.
“You could have told me,” I rasp.
He nods his head. “I know, but the longer I went withholding a part of myself from you, the harder it was to tell you.”
“So, is there a certain brother you want now?” my sister asks, looking very excited at the idea.
A blush comes to his cheeks. “There have been many over the years,” he mumbles.
“But there is someone now,” my sister says slowly.
He shrugs his shoulders and coughs something into his hand.
I narrow my eyes at him, trying to figure out what he said.
“That sounded like Ice,” my sister whispers loudly so he hears her.
He looks anywhere but at us. My eyes widen with realization.
“Ice?” I say with a gasp.
He looks at me guiltily and nods his head once.
“Oh my,” I rasp.
My mind suddenly becomes filled with images of Ice and Maverick together. There is no doubt that Ice is attractive.They would be so hot together.Wow, I look at my coolers and notice that I’ve drank a couple already.
“I’m sorry. I have no right to be looking at anyone. I’ve always wanted you,” Maverick pleads with me.
“I’m not mad. More confused than anything. I wish you would have told me. Now I’m left wondering if everything in our relationship was a lie,” I tell him honestly.
“None of it was a lie. Everything I have ever felt for you was real. I just didn’t tell you I liked men as well,” he says, sounding panicked.
“This confession doesn’t magically fix everything,” I warn.
He nods his head. “Yeah, I know it doesn’t. I just didn’t want to keep it from you anymore. If you decide to give us another chance for us to work on our marriage then you deserve to know all of me. No more secrets.”
“I’ve never had secrets from you,” I say softly.
Maverick “Viking”
I look at my wife and her sister and can’t believe I am actually confessing what I have been holding back for years.
Ana telling me that she has no secrets is like a knife to the gut.
I’m the only one keeping things from her and that needs to stop now.
I’ll be anything she needs and do whatever she wants. She calls the shots now. I still don’t blame her if she’s pissed at me for keeping this from her, but I can’t just let her walk away.
“I know I’ve been an asshole and that’s going to change,” I tell her.
“We can discuss this more after the funeral. I need to think first,” Ana tells me.
I nod my head in understanding. “I’ll be here for anything you, your sister, and mother need. Afterwards, I hope you come back home with me so I can try to fix this.”
“I can’t make any promises. There might be a chance we can’t fix it, and you need to be prepared for that,” she says softly.
