Page 39 of The Feast of Us

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"They'll have to choose." Elira's voice carries cold certainty. "Join us or face him alone. There's no middle ground anymore."

I watch them plan with growing dread. This isn't defense anymore—this is preparation for conquest. They're not just fighting Malakor; they're planning to replace him. To build their own version of his empire, just with different philosophical foundations.

"You're talking about war," I say finally. "Real war. Not just hunting the people who took me, not just defending ourselves. You're planning to fight for control of... everything."

"Because the alternative is extinction," Kaerith says, turning to face me fully. "Malakor won't stop until every bonded pair isdead or converted to his ideology. The only way to save what we are is to prove our version is stronger."

"Our version?"

"Consensual evolution instead of trauma-born transformation," Elira explains. "Willing adaptation rather than forced conversion. We've discovered something, Lyssa. Something that makes us stronger than traditional bonds while avoiding the brittleness of Malakor's hate-based philosophy."

They believe what they're saying. That's what makes it so terrifying. This isn't madness or corruption in their minds—it's enlightenment. They genuinely think they've found a better way, a superior form of existence that justifies whatever methods they're using to achieve it.

"The final confrontation is inevitable," Kaerith continues. "Both sides are too committed now to coexist. The question isn't whether there'll be war—it's which philosophy will dominate when the war ends."

"And us?" I ask quietly. "Thorrin and me? Where do we fit in this war?"

The look that passes between them is answer enough. We're assets to be protected or liabilities to be managed, depending on our usefulness to their cause. The old equality, the sense of family decision-making, is gone. We're subjects now, not partners.

"You're safe," Elira says, reaching out to take my hand. "You're both safe. But safety requires... adaptation. Understanding. Acceptance of what's necessary."

"What kind of adaptation?"

"Participation in enhancement protocols," Kaerith says. "Integration with our expanded operational methods. Commitment to the cause that goes beyond personal comfort levels."

Enhancement protocols. Integration. Commitment to the cause. The euphemisms pile up like barriers, hiding whatever dark reality they're describing. But the message is clear: conform or be excluded. Evolve or become irrelevant.

"What if we can't?" The question comes out before I can try to stop it. "What if we can't adapt the way you have?"

The silence that follows is deafening. Kaerith and Elira exchange another of those loaded looks, communicating in ways that exclude Thorrin and me entirely. When they speak, it's with the patience of teachers explaining simple concepts to slow students.

"Then you'll have to make a choice," Elira says gently. "Support what we're building, or face what he's building. There's no neutral ground left, Lyssa. No safe middle position where you can preserve the old ways while others fight for the future."

I understand now. This isn't just about Malakor anymore. It's about competing versions of the same fundamental transformation. Two different approaches to discarding the bonds and limitations that once defined us. The choice isn't between good and evil—it's between different degrees of damnation.

"No moral options remain," I whisper, more to myself than to them.

"Only practical ones," Kaerith confirms. "Only survival decisions and strategic necessities. The luxury of moral absolutism died with the old world, Lyssa. What matters now is which darkness proves stronger, more adaptable, more capable of victory."

They're right. I can see it in the intelligence spread across their tables, in the scope of the war they're preparing for. Whatever we were before, whatever bonds we cherished, whatever innocence we preserved—none of it can survive what's coming.

The only question left is which monsters we'll become in service of survival.

And looking at my sister's face, at the cold satisfaction in her eyes as she plans for war, I'm beginning to suspect we may not have as much choice in that matter as I once believed.