“You don’t even realize how pretty you are, do you?”he asked.
Her cheeks started to heat.
“You know, I love looking at you, and watching you.I think you’re an amazing woman.I can’t take my eyes off you.You’re incredible.”
She licked her lips.
“And you turn me on.”He ran a hand down his face.“I wish I had shown you sex differently.I’d never been with a virgin and figured all that shit you see on the movies and read in the fucking books was fiction.I didn’t know it was going to be fucking painful the first time.I never wanted to hurt you.”
There was silence and he stared across the small space, and she didn’t look away.
“Why don’t you teach me?”Clarissa asked.
“Teach you?”
“We didn’t exactly get off to the best start, but that doesn’t mean we can’t figure this out.You don’t want to divorce me, and I don’t want to divorce you.This isn’t about duty, it’s about us.We’re learning each other, and one day you’re going to need a child, and I would like to be a mother someday.”
“You want to be a mother?”
“Yes, and even though I don’t know how, I don’t want to be in a loveless marriage.One day, I do hope I might be able to fall in love with you.”
He looked at her a little taken aback, because he wanted her to love him.No one had ever really loved him.
“Do you think you could love me?”he asked.
“Yeah, I do.Apart from some of the stuff you say to your friends, you’re okay.”
He couldn’t help but laugh.Putting his glass of scotch down, he looked toward her, then told her to come to him.She looked nervous at first, but then she climbed out of the chair, walked around the coffee table, and moved closer to him.
Clarissa stood in front of him, and he reached out, touching the tips of her fingers, then suddenly he grabbed her hand and pulled her onto his lap.She didn’t fight him, and he wrapped his arms around her, stroking his hands down her thigh.One of her hands went around his neck, while the other was held in the air, fingers clenched.He let her go long enough to take her hand and place it on his chest.“You can touch me whenever you want.”
She licked her lips.
“Would you like to touch me?”he asked.
“Yes.”
“Good.”
And he pulled her in close and kissed her lips.He was not in a rush to make this go any faster.He was happy to take his time, explore her, and learn absolutely everything about her.
He wanted this to last.Not because of some fucking business deal, but because he happened to like Clarissa.She was a good woman.Her grandmother had told him to give her a chance.There was a passionate woman beneath the surface, just waiting to come out.At first, he didn’t understand what the hell she was talking about, but now he knew and he understood.
Clarissa needed someone to be patient with her.She needed someone to have her back, and above all else, she needed someone to love her.
