Page 96 of Cemetery Boys

Julian’s back rose as he gulped down air. Slowly, the wind settled.

He drew in a deep breath and exhaled it through pursed lips. When he stood up and faced Yadriel, his cheeks were splotchy, his edges watery. He dragged his fist across his eyes before finally letting his hands fall to his sides.

Yadriel wrapped his arms around himself. “Are you okay?”

Julian’s laugh was forced. “Jesus,” he sniffed, looking anywhere but at Yadriel. “Can we not talk about feelings right now?”

“I don’t think Rio meant all that,” Yadriel continued, joining Julian on the step. “He’s just hurt. I mean, you could see that, right?”

Staring at the ground, Julian didn’t look so sure. “I didn’t mean that shit I said to him,” he mumbled. His finger moved to his throat, searching for something that wasn’t there. He glanced over to where his necklace hung around Yadriel’s neck. “I just got so mad!” He shook his head, jaw clenched.

“He’ll understand, he’ll—”

Julian’s eyes snapped to his.

“He’ll what, Yads?” he demanded. “Forgive me? Talk it out? Welcome me back?” Julian clutched at his chest, balling up his T-shirt in his fist. “I’m dead.”

Yadriel snapped his mouth shut. A shiver rolled through him. “We can figure something out,” he offered, having no idea what. He didn’t want to see Julian like this, and he didn’t want Rio going the rest of his life thinking his brother had abandoned him.

Julian was already shaking his head.

“Maybe I could try talking to him again?” Yadriel offered, scratching at the prickle on the back of his neck.

“No,” Julian said. The anger in his voice was quickly weighing down with exhaustion. “It’s better that he just thinks I ran away,” he repeated for the umpteenth time. “It’s easier this way.”

Maybe it was easier, but it didn’t feel right. Yadriel wanted to argue, but this wasn’t his family. This wasn’t his choice. “I’ll do what you think is best,” Yadriel conceded.

Julian looked at him, eyes dark and calculating.

“Hate to interrupt…” Yadriel had nearly forgotten Maritza was still there until she stepped forward. Donatello and Michelangelo were two unmovable boulders at her sides, lying on the cement and looking thoroughly unperturbed. “But it’s getting late,” she said, still giving Julian a wide berth. “And my phone says it might start raining soon.”

They all tipped their heads back to stare up at the sky. Heavy, dark clouds were creeping in, chasing away the afternoon sun.

“The dogs aren’t really good at this whole tracking thing to begin with,” Maritza pointed out. Donatello and Michelangelo stared up at her, tongues happily lolling out of their mouths. “It’s already been a couple days, and if it rains…”

“Then there will be no way for them to pick up the scent,” Yadriel finished.

Maritza nodded, giving Julian a nervous glance.

After the mess he’d made, Yadriel didn’t expect Julian to want to continue with their plan. He didn’t want to tell his brother or his friends that he’d died, so what reason did he have to help them find his body?

“Take it.” Julian stepped forward and pushed his shirt into Yadriel’s hands.

The material was worn soft and there was a hole in the shoulder. He got a small whiff of musky cologne and the faint sting of gasoline.

Julian brushed past them and started walking down the sidewalk.

Yadriel’s heart dropped to his feet. He gripped the shirt tightly and turned to Maritza. A look of defeat crossed her face, and panic rose in Yadriel’s throat. He wanted to call out and tell Julian to stop, that—

Julian glanced back at them over his shoulder. He frowned. “Don’t we need to hurry?” he asked, sounding annoyed. “Come on.” He jerked his chin. “The park is this way.”

Yadriel stared at him.

Maritza let out a loud, relieved breath.

Julian looked between them, brow furrowed. “What?”

“I—I thought—” Yadriel stammered.