Page 120 of The Secret to Belonging

and freeze

your brother

a lighter in his bandaged hand

crouches on the floor

cooking heroin

in your Viking rose spoon

the cupboard in your chest

explodes

your rage does not translate

FY FAEN OGSÅ!!!!

HVA I HELVETE GJØR DU????

you grab the spoon

shove your brother as hard as you can

DEN ER IKKE DIN!

hot metal sears your hand

but

you grip it tighter

kneel down

hiss

in your brother’s ear

i am not your doormat

i am not your fool

i am in charge of my own fucking destiny

needles

broken mirror

razor blade

you back toward the door

your brother

slurs in the fetal position

you don’t give two shits