why you aren’t immediately in his arms
you have to remind yourself what happened
how his lips touched Alison’s
he sees you and stands
he looks terrible
i’m so sorry, he says
i need to explain
you sit on a cold bench
he sits next to you
you tighten your coat and cross your arms
i know she’s your best friend
was. you correct him
was my best friend
he looks at his hands
i never wanted to jeopardize your friendship
i wanted to like her as much as you do
did. you correct him again
as much as i did
he puts his hands in his pockets
looks at the ground
i need to tell you what happened
she came downstairs after we all went to bed
i was sleeping. everyone was sleeping
she came into my room
climbed under the duvet
kissed me
you put your hand up
you don’t want the image
but you need to hear me
he pleads