My head jerked back. Some lady was taking a picture of us with her phone.
“Sorry to startle you! You both just looked so happy, so I thought I’d take a picture. Here I can airdrop it to you.”
Ryan smiled. “Sure. Thanks.”
Ryan held his phone up to hers, and, magically, the pictures appeared.
I stared at the photo, and something struck me.
I had never seen myself look so happy in my life.
Ugh. Would I ever be this happy again?
We strolled through the rest of the zoo. The hippos and the gorillas were other favorites of mine.
After a long walk, we finally stopped at the food court to get a snack.
In front of me, a young couple gave their toddler daughter an ice cream cone. The father looked so caring . . . just like Ryan.
My heart ached. I felt like I was facing an oncoming train and was powerless to stop it.
“What’s wrong, Princess?”
“It’s just . . . I want that.” I pointed to the couple.
“An ice cream cone? Chocolate or vanilla?”
Ryan could definitely be clueless sometimes. But it was adorable.
“No, that. A family.”
Ryan scowled. “Well, I’m sure you and Miguel will have beautiful children.”
“Stop, Ryan. I know. You’ve already told me over and over what an idiot I am. My marriage will be loveless. Miguel is a jerk. I’ll regret it. Don’t marry him. Stop. I’m not going to change my mind.”
“You’re right. I won’t waste my breath. Nothing I say changes anything. You’re going to do what you’re going to do, no matter what I say.” He stared at the family and then turned his head. “I’m ready to bounce.”
“Okay.”
We left the zoo, and my dreams of a happy little family, behind.