Page 30 of Anarchy Chained: Alpha Thomas

I decide I don’t want to kill her. She cannot kill me, so I’m not even worried about that. But she might be a whole other animal when those memories come rushing back. I need to keep that in mind.

When we get off the freeway at Meadowlark Boulevard again, the morning is gone. She hasn’t said a word to me since that comment about her name tag in the mall parking lot. But when I pull into the long tunnel that leads to the tower, she seems to relax. Her shoulders press into the seat back and drop.

“Thank you,” she whispers in the dark. “You’ve been really nice to me.”

Yes. I really have. I’m not called nice often, but I am being extremely nice to her.

The drugs, I decide. Or lack thereof. It’s been a long time—very long time—since I was this person she’s seeing today.

I think it has something to do with the mind blast back at the hospital. It was a rush of relief when I finally let go and unleashed my power. Like a dam breaking.

It scares me a little. I’m not sure what kind of consequences I’ll have to face. Everything has consequences. You can’t bottle up your emotions for more than a decade and not expect there to be consequences.

Not to mention the drug Yasmine injected me with just before all that shit happened. I think I know what it was. Some kind of antagonist that counteracts all the drugs in my system. Ever since Case shot me with—whatever the fuck it was—back at his house a few months ago, I’ve been different. I’ve had feelings.

But it’s different now. It’s like… I feel almost… normal.

Not that I know what normal is. But it feels good. And Sadie. She’s something good, I think. Killer instincts aside. It’s not her fault she’s a product of her environment.

We could make a good team. Case has Lulu and Lincoln has Molly.

It’s almost a natural progression of things that I should get someone too.

I’ve been telling myself that since yesterday. I deserve a partner too. And I don’t have many options. Case is lucky he found Lulu. She’s not Prodigy but she gets him. Completely. And Molly and Lincoln were genetically made to be partners. Literally. Molly is bonded to him and he is bonded to her. Even if they ever stopped being in love, they are meant to be together because he is her Alpha and she is his Omega. They complete each other.

I don’t have an Omega. I killed them all a long time ago before they could kill me first. Lincoln is lucky, I decide. I almost feel envy.

“Good God.” I laugh. I cannot believe I’m envious of Lincoln.

“What?” Sadie asks as I stop the car and turn off the engine. “What’s funny?”

“Nothing,” I say. “Just irony, I guess.”