Page 31 of Whip’s Wisdom

I see a couple of the Untamed guys are brawling in the ring and I take off my cut, throw it on a hook they have by the ring and remove my shirt. I head towards the ring and get ready to jump in when I hear an order yelled out.

“Rune, Haze head out.”

I turn and look standing there are my two big brothers Grim and Riot.

I watch as Rune and Haze leave the ring and grab hold of their shirts and their cuts. As Grim and Riot take off their cuts and shirts hanging them by mine. I wait in the center of the ring for Grim to come in.

“So how are we going to do this? You need to kick some ass, then let’s go. You’ve got the both of us.”

Then for the next two hours I exchange blows with my brothers. Finally after we all look like we have been through the ringer bleeding and black eyes, I sit down in the middle of the ring with my legs up and my arms resting on my knees. Grim sits down next to me on one side and on the other side Riot sits down. I guess being with just them they are just Garrett and Gavin.

“So Devin, what’s going on? Talk to us, you went to see the triplets and obviously something happened. Tell us what’s going on.”

“What’s going on Gavin, is that I went to see the triplets without my wife. Without the one person who should’ve been there to see them. She should’ve been there to see Peyton after she had the babies. Offering advice and just being there for her and she’s missing everything. How can I do this? How can I go on and witness all these life events while knowing the one person who was supposed to be there standing beside me is gone? How could someone take away a wife, a mother, a woman who did nothing to them. She didn’t ask to be brought into this life, she never asked for any of this.

That asshole, the one that shares our blood, the one that grew up thinking he deserved something, he took my fucking wife away from me! He stole all these moments we were supposed to have together! I can’t get any of these things back! Seeing Peyton’s babies for the first time alone when I should’ve been with her! This shouldn’t have fucking happened! They were quiet, they were after the club! Who the fuck goes after women and children! Who the fuck takes away a mother from their children and imagine what she was feeling and what she went through before she died! The last fucking this she felt was those bastards taking from her, destroying her! This is my fault. I never should’ve let her go anywhere with just one man after they first tried to take her from me. I never should’ve allowed her to be without extra security. This is on me. I fucked and cost my children their mother and all the moments they could’ve had with her, that they should’ve had with her!”

Garrett puts his hand on my shoulder, “Devin, we all know what this life does. Missy, she knew what came with this life. Yeah she wasn’t born into it, but she knew what being with you meant. All this, this is not on you, it’s on that asshole who thinks he is something special because of who his mama fucked. Who is mama trapped. He doesn’t get to do these things just because he thinks he should’ve had your life, he was never gonna have your life Devin. Him taking Missy was the coward's way out, he knew he couldn’t get to anyone else because he is weak. He chose to hit you in a place that was going to hurt you the most. Missy would’ve never wanted more men on her and you know it. She also wouldn’t want you to blame yourself for this. You’ve got enough going on.”

“Yeah well, my family is lost. Sophie is in a place where she won’t even see or talk to her family. I can’t find the twins and I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve got everybody looking every which way and even that feels like it’s not enough.”

“Devin, you are not a superhero. You are doing all you can. We know Sophie will get over blaming you. She is just looking for the easy target and that’s how she’s handling her grief because she knows she can be mad at you and you’ll still be there. One day she’s going to wake up and she’s not going to be angry anymore. But you have to stop blaming yourself. We are going to find these assholes and when we do, we are going to help you kill every last one of them.”

Chapter Nineteen

Whip

22 days later

Today is the day that we are bringing the triplets back to the clubhouse. Peyton has been beaming and we all have been getting along great. I know that everything has been going this way because she doesn’t want to fight me right now with everything going on right now. I understand that. All we have been focusing on is getting the kids home. It has been a long 22 days, but we are finally here and the babies are doing really well. They have also met a bunch of their family since they have been at the hospital. Bulldog is still here with Davis and Tillie and we are excited to have him. I know that he is going through some things and by the looks of him he is getting it out at the clubhouse and in the ring.

But today we are trying to not worry about what is going on with Bulldog, we are trying to think positively about what is happening today. They passed all their milestones and we get to bring them home where we can get all the snuggles and cuddles that we want. I know I sound sappy and corny, but I’m so excited to get my babies home. Peyton has mixed feelings about today which I understand. Everything with her mom has been hitting her hard and not hearing from Parker has also been bothering her. I know she has reached out and hasn’t heard anything back. She’s the one sibling that hasn’t been in touch since Peyton had the babies. They were so close and it is so sad to see where life has left them.

Part of me feels like this is my fault because I am part of the reason Peyton decided to stay in Devil’s Hollow, but I can’t say I regret this happening. It helped open my eyes and expanded the relationship I feel I can have with Peyton. Plus if it weren’t for my fuck up we wouldn’t have the sweet babies that we have. I can’t even imagine what life would be like without them in it anymore. Terror has been very understanding about me not being at the clubhouse like I would normally be and thankfully nothing crazy has come up. I am hoping that things stay calm until after our move to Briarfield so that I can be close enough to get to the clubhouse every day.

With everything that we have been dealing with with the triplets we have not really talked much about the move. We have really been taking everything day by day. Peyton has called a type of truce with me where she has decided that she is just letting me be close to her without fully trusting me with her heart. She isn’t being mean or angry when we have conversations, but I know that she doesn’t have it in her to fight right now. The fact that the triplets will be coming home and adding more stressors to our home life will probably in every way make things come back up. Thankfully the Untamed girls that I flirted with when I was here over Peyton’s spring break have finally learned their lesson and backed off. Plus any of the other bitches that came in thinking I was a free man have been leaving me alone.

I’m hoping once we move and we begin spending time at not only the new Untamed clubhouse, but also the Chaos clubhouse we will not have to deal with any of these bitches drama. I do know that I can’t get my hopes up too high. Women at that club have been starting all sorts of shit if what I heard is correct. Sophie has still been dealing with a lot of drama with the club bitches that have been brought in and they think spreading lies about Lash fucking them. It’s been messy especially since Sophie isn’t really talking to any of the club brothers at the moment. I have been told they approach her when she is out of the clubhouse at the grocery store or even having come into work. The only reason they know is because the guys that she works with have told them they show up to the shop. She has definitely brought it up to Terror about some of them approaching her and I don’t really think she was too impressed with the answer she got about him having to bring it to the table.

I’m hoping that nothing happens to Peyton when she comes around the Devil’s Chaos clubhouse because I really want our relationship to continue to move along on the right foot and I know that means I am going to have to be open and honest with her about my family and my childhood. Two things I am dreading sharing with anyone. I know she has a basic understanding of my home life not being all that great, but I don’t think she knows the full extent. She was too young when things went down, I don’t even know if she remembers everything and how much time I actually spent at their home.

Walking into the family room where the twins are getting ready for their carseat test, I am trying to put all the negative thoughts to bed. I want to move forward right now in a positive way so that I can have positive thoughts and feelings for everything that is going on with the triplets at this moment. Peyton is holding Ronan, Knox is holding Rowan and they are attempting the carseat test with Rebel. I walk in and smile looking at my beautiful family and walk over towards Peyton, placing my hand on her lower back and kissing the top of her head.

“How’s it going in here, baby?”

Peyton looks up and smiles, “Well so far, Ronan passed his carseat test, Rebel is up and so far she is doing pretty well. Then after that we get to make sure Rowan is good to go. If all three of them pass today then they can come home with us. Did you bring the SUV?”

“Yeah, it’s in the parking lot. I can move it to the door when we are ready to leave. How is my sweet little princess doing?”

“Well so far so good. They did say we could do all three of them at once, but we thought we’d get some extra snuggle time and just do one at a time so we can make sure everything is good.”

“I like that idea.”

She passes me Ronan who is rocking an Untamed onesie and hat with some cute little jean pants. I place him on my chest and rock with him. Peyton walks over to where the nurse is doing the carseat test and they begin to chat for a little while. I walk over to Knox.

“So your room at the clubhouse is set up for the babies. I got it all taken care of with Valkyrie. Since we are still on, we don’t know what is actually going on in Peyton’s head. She set up my room right across the hall. I’ve got monitors in my room so that I can hear the babies if they get up. Even have a couple of bassinets in my room for us to trade off so sleep can be had by everyone. That might take some convincing with Peyton to let them stay in my room with me, but I’ve got a fridge full of breast milk, you’ve got the actual supply in your room, but also a fridge. Monitors are also connected in your room to mine whenever I have the babies in my room. My finger prints can get access to your room and here is the key to my guest room.”

He takes it in his hand, “She didn’t give you a room with the finger print access?”