Page 127 of Me and Mr. Darcy

‘Hmmm, I’m not sure,’ I murmur. ‘I think I might have to do a bit more investigative reporting . . .’ And slipping my hands up the back of his T-shirt and on to bare skin, I tilt my face up to his and he bends down and kisses me.

Epilogue

‘How’s that looking, miss?’

The two workmen standing on ladders shout down to me, their thick Queens’ accents resonating loudly through the city hum. Standing below them on the sidewalk, I crick my neck to look upwards, shading my eyes from the bright morning sunshine.

‘Um . . . it’s not quite straight . . . Left a bit.’ I yell back.

Cue lots of puffing and panting, their breath making white swirling clouds in the frosty air.

‘What about now?’

I squint, cocking my head from side to side and stepping back a little away from the store. ‘No . . . a little higher, I think . . .’

I can tell they want to murder me. Me, the girl in the yellow coat and woollen bobble hat, sipping her mug of coffee and giving orders to two burly guys in lumber jackets, beanies and fingerless gloves, like a couple of latter-day Rocky Balboas. But seeing as I’m the one paying them, they can’t. I’m the boss now.

They just grunt that bit louder to make sure of a bigger tip.

‘This OK?’ they holler in stereo.

I look up again. I want it to be perfect. It has to be perfect. I pause, my eyes sweeping over the varnished wood, the bold swirls of paint, the glint of gold against the black lettering: Albriqht’s. I feel a thrilling rush of exhilaration. My new sign. Hanging over my new store. The legal papers were signed two weeks ago, but now it feels official. A grin breaks over my face and I feel like punching the air.

Instead, I just make do with a simple, ‘Perfect!’

I’ve been back in New York for nearly three weeks now, and I feel as if so much has happened. Well, a lot can happen in three weeks, can’t it? Look how much happened during that week I spent in England.

Watching the workmen busily fixing the sign into place, I sip my coffee and smile absently to myself as my mind drifts back. I’ve thought a lot about that trip since I’ve been back, about the lessons I learned and the friends I made. And of course I’ve thought a lot about Mr Darcy. About what really happened back there in England over New Year.

Now I’m back in New York, back to my real life, I have to be honest, it does all seem a bit unreal. I mean, I was so sure back then, there was no doubt in my mind, but it’s funny how things can seem different when a bit of time and space has passed. How uncertain you can become, how doubts can creep in that make you question yourself and your memories of the past. And now, looking back with hindsight, I can’t help wondering, Did it really happen? Did I really meet Mr Darcy? Does he really exist?

I haven’t seen him since he vanished that day in Lyme Park, and standing here, in the middle of SoHo, the mere thought of a fictional character somehow coming to life and turning up in a frock coat and breeches does seem pretty ridiculous. I’ve thought about the times we met and I guess you can explain them all away if you want to. Like I guess you can explain everything away if you try hard enough. Isn’t that what sceptics do all the time? Trying to make sense of things that don’t make sense by using common sense, rationality and that little big thing called coincidence . . .

In which case, maybe it was just a mixture of jet lag, desire and an overactive imagination that conjured up Mr Darcy at Chawton Manor. Perhaps I fainted at Winchester Cathedral and was so delirious I imagined him to be there. It could be that our moonlit boatride on the lake was simply a dream. Our New Year’s Eve horseride a hallucination, caused by too much champagne and the rest of that incredibly strong joint. And our picnic at Sham Castle was just a fantasy, the result of me falling asleep, tired and upset from my argument with Spike. And, yes, it’s possible that in the maze of gardens at Lyme Park, I was so lost and defeated and crying so hard that I envisaged Mr Darcy finding me. So that ultimately I was able to find myself.

But. And this is a big but. I’m not so sure. Part of me actually wants to believe it’s true, that something magical really did happen on that trip to England and I really did get to date Mr Darcy. But I don’t think I’ll ever know. And I don’t think it matters, does it?

Because one thing’s for sure: Mr Darcy does exist. In as much as he exists in the imaginations of millions of women everywhere. Remember June, the immigration officer at Heathrow? He was real to her. And what about Rupinda, Rose, Maeve, Hilary . . . The list is endless. Right now, all over the world, someone, somewhere, is dreaming about Mr Darcy. So what if it’s a fantasy. Aren’t fantasies real?

‘Hey, is that the new sign?’

I whirl round to see Freddy from the bakery next door loping across the cobbles towards me. He’s wearing an apron and his arms are covered in a white coating of flour, all the way up to his elbows.

‘It looks amazing.’

I feel a huge beat of pride. ‘Thanks.’ I smile appreciatively.

‘Your folks must be really proud of you.’

‘Yeah, they are.’ I nod. ‘They’re coming down tonight with my brother. We’re all going to celebrate.’ Happiness glows inside me. Since getting back from our respective trips, my parents and I have been making a lot more effort. OK, we’ll never be best friends, but I’ve got plenty of friends. I don’t need any more friends, I need a mom and a dad. I think admitting that to myself, and to them, was the first step for all of us.

‘Wow, that’s just great, Emily, really great.’ Freddy gives me a big, floury, aftershaved hug and then grins ruefully. ‘She in there?’ He gestures to the store.

‘You mean Stella?’ I ask. ‘Yeah, why?’ I narrow my eyes. Since getting back from England, my radar’s been picking up a lot of phone calls, visits and whispered conversations between Stella and Freddy. ‘What’s going on with you two?’ I ask smiling.

‘Nuthin’.’ He shrugs innocently, and bounds off back across the cobbles.

Nuthin’? Hmm. Now I’m really suspicious.