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That was the discipline, and standing in front of his door with a warm plate, she finally paid for it the way her father must have paid at the wire, every single night, walking away blind.

Everything in her wanted to knock.

She was a feeder of people; her whole apparatus ran on the moment the fork stuttered, on watching the face do the thing; walking away from a plate was like plating a dish and burning the ticket.

More than the watching, she wanted to see him.

Five days of a man eating fuel at bad tables, and she missed the metronome stutter, missed the amber tracking her across a room pretending it wasn’t, missed the one bite of flatbread standing hostage for everything the man couldn’t say.

She’d gone and gotten invested. The plant knew. Renn knew. The braise had known for a month.

She knew this drill too well: make the last night good, pack food for the road, add no weight to the duffel. Her family had loved one another through every posting without making the person who left carry everybody else’s wanting on top of the orders.

Love, in Tisha’s first language, meant making departure easier.

Interesting had left the station some days ago. She was cheerfully, catastrophically past interesting.

She set the plate down on the deck, square to the door. Card on top, tented, one word up.

Somewhere behind that grey door was a man who felt everything on the station whether he wanted to or not, who had built his whole life into a wall against it, and who had spooked — she’d have bet the good skillet — not because something hurt him at that birthday party, but because for half a second, something hadn’t.

She couldn’t prove it, but she knew how it went with the ones who’d been out too long: it was never the shelling that finally broke them. It was the quiet. It was the first warm thing after, because the warm thing meant admitting how long they’d been cold.

“Supper’s on the perimeter,” she told the door, under her breath, in her mother’s stew-voice, and walked away without looking back, blind as her father, teaching the wire.

Behind her, the corridor hummed. The plate steamed gently against the grey.

She was around the corner and gone before she let herself grin, and the grin arrived enormous, unstoppable, entirely unbothered by four days of tactical retreat.

Because — supply-side truth, older than any army — there had never once in the history of the world been a scout who could hold out past the smell of that braise, and she had made it with both hands, and tomorrow was day twenty-six, and she could wait.

Chapter 9

Aldric

He smelled it before he opened the door, and assumed, with the flat certainty of a tired man, that he had finally begun to hallucinate.

It had been a long day at the end of a long week in a campaign he was losing. The negotiations had produced four hours of language about frameworks and one new Earth-side subpoena.

The feeds had run Hargrove twice.

His own perimeter checks had returned their nightly finding — intact, smaller — and he had eaten nothing since dawn on the theory, five days old now and failing, that hunger was at least a known quantity.

And the corridor outside his quarters smelled like smoke and marrow and bread.

He stood over the plate for a long moment.

It sat square to his door, centered with a precision he registered as hers — everything the woman did with her hands was deliberate; he had watched her plate five hundred meals with the economy of a field surgeon — and it steamed gently through its cover into the grey air of the residence corridor, and on top of it, tented, one word up in a strong clear hand, sat a card.

ERIC.

Aldric stood in an empty corridor at the ninth bell and felt the entire engagement collapse. He had drilled for every conceivable assault except the one where the opposing force walked up to the wire, set down supper, and left.

There was no doctrine for this. Hostility he could repel; pursuit he could out-distance; questions had doors, and doors had latches. But she had asked nothing. She wasn’t even here — had chosen not to be here, he understood, reading the empty corridor with a scout’s eyes; she had carried this two decks after a full service and set it down and walked away blind, on purpose, forgoing the one payment a cook was owed, which was the watching. No knock. No summons. No siege.

Just proof the hour still held.

He looked at the card again. One word, wrong name, right hand. It should have read as mockery. It read — his instruments swung uselessly; he had no calibration for it — it read the way it sounded at the pass. Light, precise, laid flat. A blade laid flat and spent, for reasons beyond tactical understanding, on kindness.