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Maisie stood at the point of fire, the element we shared, an inheritance from both of our parents. Her desire that I trust her, that I take strength from her, was palpable.
As we took our respective points along the pentagram, I couldn’t help but reflect on how our magic had failed or backfired against each of us. Ellen could so readily heal others, but had come to rely on daily AA meetings as the cornerstone of her own well-being. Iris, capable of catching the wind and escaping to the heavens, had spent a good part of her life chained to a man who abused her emotionally and, we had come to learn, physically as well. Oliver, whose ability to compel others had led to the death of a young woman as well as her unborn child, tried to pretend he’d moved past the guilt, but I could see it wrapped around and rooted in his heart. I knew every time he looked at Adam, he wondered what Adam’s son would have looked like, the type of person he would have grown into. I suspected Adam often wondered the same. Had they found a way to deal with this, or did they tap-dance around it?
My sister. Magic had nearly eaten Maisie alive. It corrupted her every word and deed. Did I ever really know my sister? The betrayal between us had been seeded into the very womb we had shared. I was choosing to trust her. Choosing to believe the evil that had taken her over was not her own. Would I pay the price for this choice? I felt sure in one way or the other I would.
Then there was me. The one who’d grown up on the outside of magic, only to have it hit me like a freight train. I stood at the head of the pentagram, the point of spirit, the place of power, as this was my spell to work. “Peter,” I called into the darkness. “I need you to stand in the center.” He approached in measured, cautious steps.
I wanted to scream at him that I loved him, but I knew it would be like dropping a pebble into a bottomless well. My heart and my mind held counsel with each other, and somehow they both agreed: the man I’d known, the man I’d married, was gone. If his parents’ deaths hadn’t broken Peter, our son wouldn’t have tried to comfort him by revealing Peter’s birth mother was still out there, still there in the world of the Fae, loving him, but what was done was done. “Face me,” I commanded with a break in my voice. His eyes shone a cold silver in the night. Any love he’d known for me was gone.
I’d watched him struggle, fighting a losing battle against his true nature. I watched the Peter I loved die a bit more each day, until he was gone, leaving only a wounded creature desperate to escape this world where he didn’t belong. Desperate to return to the people who had been denied to him for so long. The child who had once danced in my womb at the sound of his father’s voice had fallen still. I would find a way to give my son the life he deserved. I’d probably never fill the void left by his father, but I’d do my best. I closed my eyes for a moment and drew a deep breath. I promise you, my little one. Somehow I will make this right for you.
If magic were wish fulfillment, when I opened my eyes, Peter and I would have found ourselves home, together, stringing tacky blinking holiday lights across the front of my family’s already overwhelmingly large and ornate Victorian. The thought of the holiday caused my mind to flash again on the story of mistletoe. Such an innocent bit of vegetation, but so deadly when overlooked. Just as the Norse goddess never considered the harm it might bring her son, I never thought that it could be my own son who would reveal to Peter his link to the Fae.
But no celebrations for us. The only light I could see shone not from holiday lights but from the encircled star and from my husband’s eyes. His eyes were turned upward, toward the portal opening above us, a doorway that would carry him home. A rustle at the edge of the trees caught my attention.
The blackest of hair, the palest of skin. Her lithe neck was stretched tall, her bearing regal. Even cloaked by shadow, I knew her to be the most ravishing creature I had ever witnessed. A crimson gown and rosebud lips. The fairest princess of them all. She embodied all fairy-tale superlatives and epithets, and I despised her to the depths of my very soul. A soft moan escaped my lips as a sense of finality washed over me, a finality that offered not even the flimsiest hope, for before me stood Peter’s birth mother. She had come to collect her boy.
Peter turned to her and recognized her instantly. He attempted to rush to her, only to rebound against the boundary of the circle. He groaned and rushed at the circle like an animal trying to burst free from a cage.
“This witch magic is unnecessary,” she said, her voice ringing through the night like crystal bells. She held up her hand and the light of the circle was extinguished. Peter broke free and rushed into her arms. “Mo mhac. My son.” The portal that had always been just a bit out of Peter’s reach slid down beside him. His face lit up with rapture and without a word, without a glance in my direction, without a moment of hesitation, he rushed through it, past the horizon, and he was gone.
TWENTY-THREE
I gasped as the cold blade of grief that had lodged itself in my heart twisted once more. I had come to the point where I had found strength enough to let him go, but there remained so many things I wanted to say to him. Words I wanted him to hear. Words of regret I’d hoped to hear from him. Promises that someday he would return to me, to our son. This utter lack of hesitation, his joy in abandoning us, was more than I could bear.
Like a boy fleeing school at the beginning of summer, Peter raced through the portal connecting this world to that of the Fae. He didn’t hesitate. He didn’t look back. Not a single farewell, not even a wave. As my eyes followed him into his new horizon, a hole formed in the material of my existence. He was as good as dead to me now. No, worse. There were plenty of pretty stories promising reunions in the world beyond death. I’d never heard any such tale about those separated as I had just been from Peter.
I gasped, struggling for air, unable to catch my breath as the realization that he was truly gone, that I would never see him again, sank in. So many times over the years, I’d had the chance to reach out to him. To take his hand. To tell him I loved him. So many times I’d had the opportunity, and I hadn’t taken advantage of it. I despised myself now for those overlooked, unappreciated chances. The woman, the Fae, his mother, somehow she knew the spell had been broken and that the moment had come to reclaim her son. She stood off to the side watching as my heart was wrenched from my chest. She was so calm, so poised, I very nearly thought her heartless, until I looked deep into her silver eyes. Even though those eyes were not human, I could tell what I saw there was perhaps as close as the Fae came to sympathy. She might be the source of my anguish, but I felt she took no pleasure in it.
I felt a stabbing sensation in my chest, and my shoulders hunched up as my back bent. Hot sobs came from such a primordial place in my soul they could have been confused with laughter. I didn’t feel sure I could survive this pain. I didn’t know if I really wanted to. A part of me wanted to let the pain take me, to carry me away from the land of the living. Another part of me wanted nothing more than to rush through the entry that still hovered only a few feet away, mere inches off the ground, and drag Peter back through it, force him to come back to me. I knew deep down that even if it were possible, I could never be that selfish. I could never be that cruel.
I felt a black rage bubbling up within me. My anger craved a target. “How could you?” I turned to his mother. “How could you monsters send your children to us, let us love them, then take them away?”
“Monsters?” She looked at me with her luminous silver eyes. “If we Fae are monsters, then you witches have made us such.” Even though her words had been said as a reproach, there was no anger behind them. Her voice caressed me. “No, I would never have caused you this pain, a pain very much like the one I myself felt when I gave my son up to this world.”
“Then why do you do it?” Ellen asked. “I lost my boy. If I had had the choice, I would have given my very soul to save his life, to keep him here with me. I cannot imagine simply handing him over to strangers.”
The Fae’s eyes opened wider. “Is it possible you witches have forgotten your own history?” Our silence served as our answer. Her lovely face fell on me. “Then you must think me a monster.”
“Tell us,” Iris said, abandoning her point on the star and coming to put her arms around me. “What causes your kind to behave as you do? Why do you trade your own babies for human children? What purpose does having your changelings in our world serve?” I noticed Oliver had gone to Maisie, that he was sheltering her. God. She had loved Peter too. Was her heart breaking like mine?
The Fae broached our circle. I was quickly coming to the conclusion that witch magic was nothing more than minor prestidigitation compared to the magic of the Fae. “Your husband,” she said, reaching out to me with her long slim fingers, “my son. He’s not just any Fae. He is royalty. He is a prince.” She held her head high, her delicate neck lovely in the moonlight. Around that neck she wore a pendant that might have been mistaken for an enormous ruby if rubies could glow in the dark. A scent reminiscent of sweet olive flower surrounded her. “I do not tell you this out of conceit, I tell you this so you will understand the desperate position in which you witches and your ‘line’?”—the word sounded sharp coming from her mouth—“have placed the Fae.”
“The line?” Somehow, before she even explained herself, a wave of guilt washed over me, an emotio
n oddly out of place in the current circumstances, but the knowledge that we as witches were somehow responsible for where I now stood struck me as both an unpleasant and undeniable truth.
“Yes, that is how the web of magic you witches wove is known among your kind, is it not? The device by which you claimed this world, this dimension as your own, it was known as ‘the line’ at the time of its creation.”
Iris squeezed me a tad more tightly. “We do still call it that, but how could it be of any consequence to the Fae?”
“When you draw a line, when you make a demarcation between one zone and another, you are creating a barrier, cutting the one thing off from the other. To protect yourselves from the dimension through which the great demons entered your reality, you witches gave yourselves a much wider berth than you needed. Once our dimension shared much of the same physical space as your own. Your line cut our world off, separating us from our shared source. Its creation was more than devastating. Greater than decimating. In the blink of an eye, a world of actualities was wiped out. Only a small remnant of the Fae survived. We tried to rebuild. We tried to start anew, but many of our children had been poisoned by your act of treachery. They were born deformed, their cognitive abilities damaged beyond any hope of healing.” Her face lost some of its luster. “The worst is the reverberations of your magic set our reality adrift. Our wise ones determined we could slow this drift by placing our own equivalent of your line’s anchors in your reality. It will live on as an eternal point of shame for us, but we were so angry, so desperate, for generations we stole human children from their cradles and put our own damaged children in their place.”
“But my Peter, he’s beautiful.”
She smiled at me with obvious pride. “Our efforts worked. The exchange of children has almost stopped our drift, not completely, but still, we now have time to strive to find a permanent solution.” She approached me in a nearly liquid movement. She touched my cheek, and I felt my body relax. “After many generations, we began to heal. The developmental problems that faced many of the first generation after your magic nearly destroyed us have for the most part disappeared. Our children are again physically beautiful and intellectually blessed. Their magic,” she said as her eyes widened and shone with what I felt had to be joy, “it is wondrous, even by the standards of the Fae.”
She removed her hand, and I felt instantly sadder, somehow diminished by the loss of her touch. “Why did you send Peter, if he was a prince?”
