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‘A soul in hell?’ I said. ‘What are you talking about?’
He moved about the room for a minute or so, and then came and sat on the arm of my chair.
‘I don’t know what you saw,’ he said, ‘or what you felt, but there has never in all my life happened to me anything more real than what these last few minutes have brought. I have talked to a soul in the hell of remorse, which is the only possible hell. He knew, from what happened last night, that he could perhaps establish communication through me with the world he had quitted, and he sought me and found me. I am charged with a mission to a woman I have never seen, a message from the contrite … You can guess who it is …’
He got up with a sudden briskness.
‘Let’s verify it anyhow,’ he said. ‘He gave me the street and the number. Ah, there’s the telephone book! Would it be a coincidence merely if I found that at No. 20 in Chasemore Street, South Kensington, there lived a Lady Payle?’
He turned over the leaves of the bulky volume.
‘Yes, that’s right,’ he said.
Christmas Meeting
by Rosemary Timperley
I have never spent Christmas alone before.
It gives me an uncanny feeling, sitting alone in my ‘furnished room’, with my head full of ghosts, and the room full of voices of the past. It’s a drowning feeling – all the Christmases of the past coming back in a mad jumble: the childish Christmas, with a house full of relations, a tree in the window, sixpences in the pudding, and the delicious, crinkly stocking in the dark morning; the adolescent Christmas, with mother and father, the war and the bitter cold, and the letters from abroad; the first really grown-up Christmas, with a lover – the snow and the enchantment, red wine and kisses, and the walk in the dark before midnight, with the ground so white, and the stars diamond bright in a black sky – so many Christmases through the years.
And, now, the first Christmas alone.
But not quite loneliness. A feeling of companionship with all the other people who are spending Christmas alone – millions of them – past and present. A feeling that, if I close my eyes, there will be no past or future, only an endless present which is time, because it is all we ever have.
Yes, however cynical you are, however irreligious, it makes you feel queer to be alone at Christmas time.
So I’m absurdly relieved when the young man walks in. There’s nothing romantic about it – I’m a woman of nearly fifty, a spinster schoolma’am with grim, dark hair, and myopic eyes that once were beautiful, and he’s a kid of twenty, rather unconventionally dressed with a flowing, wine-coloured tie and black velvet jacket, and brown curls which could do with a taste of the barber’s scissors. The effeminacy of his dress is belied by his features – narrow, piercing, blue eyes, and arrogant, jutting nose and chin. Not that he looks strong. The skin is fine-drawn over the prominent features, and he is very white.
He bursts in without knocking, then pauses, says: ‘I’m so sorry. I thought this was my room.’ He begins to go out, then hesitates and says: ‘Are you alone?’
‘Yes.’
‘It’s – queer, being alone at Christmas, isn’t it? May I stay and talk?’
‘I’d be glad if you would.’
He comes right in, and sits down by the fire.
‘I hope you don’t think I came in here on purpose. I really did think it was my room,’ he explains.
‘I’m glad you made the mistake. But you’re a very young person to be alone at Christmas time.’
‘I wouldn’t go back to the country to my family. It would hold up my work. I’m a writer.’
‘I see.’ I can’t help smiling a little. That explains his rather unusual dress. And he takes himself so seriously, this young man! ‘Of course, you mustn’t waste a precious moment of writing,’ I say with a twinkle.
‘No, not a moment! That’s what my family won’t see. They don’t appreciate urgency.’
‘Families are never appreciative of the artistic nature.’
‘No, they aren’t,’ he agrees seriously.
‘What are you writing?’
‘Poetry and a diary combined. It’s called My Poems and I, by Francis Randel. That’s my name. My family say there’s no point in my writing, that I’m too young. But I don’t feel young. Sometimes I feel like an old man, with too much to do before he dies.’
‘Revolving faster and faster on the wheel of creativeness.’
