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I just don’t want her to have to. Somewhere along the line I got invested.
No one else in her life can give her what she deserves, and until she can provide it for herself, then I’m taking that responsibility. Screw it. She deserves the best. She’s getting the best.
I stare ahead and lean my elbow on the door, running my hand through my hair. It’s not my decision, though. Is it? Pushing her around doesn’t make me any better than anyone else in her life.
And I don’t want to be someone else who stifles her. She’ll end up resenting me, too. If there’s one thing I’ve learned about relationships—any relationship—is that no one should wear the pants. You have to know when to come in strong and when to back off. Both of you.
Give and take. Share the power.
I ease on the brake and slowly veer to the right side of the road, coming to a stop as a car speeds past me.
Her eyes shift, but she still won’t look at me.
God, what she must be thinking.
“I’m sorry,” I say, my tone quieter and calmer now. “I didn’t mean to command you like that.” I drop my hands from the wheel and try to slow down my heart a little.
“Cole is staying with…” I trail off, knowing she knows who he’s staying with. “For the time being,” I finish. “You’ll have space, and you can have the other spare room. It’s your space. You like my house, right?”
She takes in a breath, searching for words. “Yes, but…”
“I like having help around the place,” I explain. “And it’s nice to come home and not have to make dinner every night. We keep the same arrangement.”
She pauses, and fear creeps up. Maybe I read her wrong, after all. Maybe she’s just trying to find a way to get me off her back. Maybe she really doesn’t want to stay at my house.
“Will you be happy? At my house? Honestly?” I ask. “Happier than back there?”
The silence stretches between us, and I’m beginning to feel stupid. Like I misread everything and she wasn’t getting comfortable under my roof.
But all the times I caught glimpses of her this week—lighting her candles, working in the garden, having a morning swim, or cooking in the kitchen and bobbing her head to whatever awful hair band she’s listening to this week—it seemed like she was at home, you know? She was smiling so much, we’d gotten comfortable enough to joke around, and she was even getting mischievous on me, adding stupid sprouts and avocado to the turkey sandwich in my lunch the other day.
I smile a little, thinking about it.
I don’t want her to trade down because she thinks she’s unwanted at my house or she’s imposing. I want to make sure she knows that she doesn’t have to leave.
I blink long and hard, suddenly weary. And I fucking hate the idea of her in that shithole with no one there who’s going to appreciate anything she does.
I drop my eyes and my voice. “Please don’t make me leave you there.”
I see her head turn in my direction, and I know how I must sound.
“Please,” I whisper again.
She’s staring at me, but I refuse to look at her, because I’m afraid my eyes will say something more or give away something teetering on the edge of my brain that I don’t want to face yet.
She’s happy at my house, she’s safe there, she has a bed, and there’s no fucking mice. It’s that simple.
Yeah. It’s that simple.
After a moment, I hear her draw in a calm breath as she reaches over and grabs her seatbelt, fastening it.
I swallow.
“Fright Night is streaming on Netflix,” she says. “Half pepperoni and half taco?”
I break into a smile. Turning to her, I see her blue eyes looking at me with the same easy humor she had when we were cutting watermelon the other night.
I shift the car into gear again and nod. “Call it in,” I tell her. “We’ll pick it up on the way home.”
