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sign that she may have heard him but she could tell Liz hadn’t.
Taylor closed her eyes remembering everything clearly.
That day she knew he had spoken with her. She knew it with everything she had in her. She admitted she was emotionally unstable but she wasn’t hearing things. It wasn’t her mind playing tricks on her. She wasn’t so lost in mourning that somehow her psych made it up.
Taylor walked towards the headstone. When she reached it she stared at the carvings.
Chase Zacharia James
08/21/1978 - 01/15/2006
Beloved Husband
Beloved Son
Her fingers brushed over the words and it was exactly like losing him all over again. She felt as if something was squeezing her heart. She could feel the grip as it tried desperately to beat again. Her breathing became heavy. She felt faint. She fell to her knees crying.
This isn’t what I wanted when I came out here. I didn’t want to relive that day. I just need answers.
“Chase, please hear me. I need you. I don’t know what to do. You told me if I ever needed you to speak to you that you would hear me. I need you now. My life isn’t as normal as we thought. My decisions from here on out changes everything. The kids are in danger. Oh yes kids. Ashley and Zach. Your kids are in danger. DO YOU HEAR ME?”
Her hands fell to her knees, her head dropped low; she was completely hysterical and lost now. She needed someone to tell her what to do. Where to go. Anything.
A warm soft touch to her shoulder caused her breath to catch. She raised her head and turned. She saw the hand resting there. It was exquisitely lit with light as if it were glowing. Her eyes followed up the arm that was glowing to the face that gleamed with beautiful light.
She couldn’t believe it. Chase stood there smiling back at her. She reached out to him, but she fell stumbling through him. She turned back to him standing there.
“Babe. I’ve missed you so much.”
“Chase, I missed you so much. I have been so angry with you. There is so much going on now and I don’t know what to do. Tell me what do I do?”
“I know about the twins. You have done a wonderful job with them. It’s ok. I’d be angry with you if the shoes were reversed. But they aren’t. I know you think I gave up Babe. I didn’t. I couldn’t take the pain anymore. I couldn’t see you living half alive when I knew that was not who you are.”
“I thought you just gave up. That you didn’t want to fight anymore.”
“I would have fought till the end of time if it would have made a difference. It wouldn’t have Babe. You have to keep going. Know that this is how it was meant to be. All you need to do is keep following your heart.”
“I don’t understand. I’m scared if I make a wrong decision it could cost them their life.”
“You won’t Love. You always make the right decisions when you follow what your heart is telling you. You want to know about your gifts. Follow your heart. That is your strongest ability. Your ability to love unconditionally is your strongest power. Use it.”
“That’s too confusing. That’s not a power. I don’t know what my heart is telling me. Just spill it. Stop the fucking riddles and just tell me what do I do?”
“Love you’re not hearing me, you know what to do. You have all the answers inside your heart. I can’t tell you what to do because I don’t know what to do. You do.”
“No I don’t, everything is so messed up. Then there is Damien, Chase. I love him. I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean for it to happen it just did. I didn’t mean to betray you I swear it.”
“Is that how you feel? That you have betrayed me? My memory?”
“Yes. I know I have.”
“I want it to happen. I want you to follow him. He’s a good man T. I want you to be happy. I don’t want you to be alone. Move on be happy. That is what I want.”
“I don’t know how Chase. He’s not a man. He’s a vampire Chase. A blood sucking vampire. How do you feel about that now? About me following my heart now?”
“He’s just as much of a man as I ever was. He loves you and our kids. He will treat you all the ways I wish I still could. But I can’t. You and he were meant to be Taylor. Even if I wouldn’t have died, you were meant to be with him. It’s in your destiny.”
“I can’t do this anymore Chase. I feel like all the life has left me and the only thing that keeps me here are the twins. Some destiny I have huh?”
