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Thus the Ellen Jamesians had that to get their teeth into: Ellen James, poor child, had been brainwashed into her antifeminist stance by the male villain, Garp. The betrayer of his mother! The smirking capitalizer on women's-movement politics! In the various letters, Garp's relationship with Ellen James was referred to as "seductive," "slimy," and "underhanded."

I'm sorry!

Ellen wrote.

"It's okay, it's okay. Nothing's your fault," Garp assured her.

I'm not an antifeminist!

"Of course you're not," Garp told her.

They make everything so black and white.

"Of course they do," said Garp.

That's why I hate them. They force you to be like them--or else you're their enemy.

"Yes, yes," Garp said.

I wish I could talk.

And then she dissolved, crying on Garp's shoulder, her wordless, angry blubber rousing Helen from the far-off reading room of the great house, driving Duncan from the darkroom, and waking baby Jenny from her nap.

So, foolishly, Garp decided to take them on, these grownup crazies, these devout fanatics who--even when their chosen symbol rejected them--insisted they knew more about Ellen James than Ellen James knew about herself.

"Ellen James is not a symbol," Garp wrote. "She is a rape victim who was raped and dismembered before she was old enough to make up her own mind about sex and men." Thus he began; he went on and on. And, of course, they published it--liking any fuel to any fire. It was also the first published piece of anything by T. S. Garp since the famous novel, The World According to Bensenhaver.

Actually, it was the second. In a little magazine, shortly after Jenny's death, Garp published his first and only poem. It was a strange poem; it was about condoms.

Garp felt his life was marred by condoms--man's device to spare himself and others the consequences of his lust. Our lifetime, Garp felt, was stalked by condoms--condoms in the parking lots in the early morning, condoms discovered by children in the playing sand of the beaches, condoms used for messages (one to his mother, on the door knob of their tiny wing apartment in the infirmary annex). Condoms unflushed down the dormitory toilets of the Steering School. Condoms lying slick and cocky in public urinals. Once a condom delivered with the Sunday paper. Once a condom in the mailbox at the end of the driveway. And once a condom on the stick-shift shaft of the old Volvo; someone had used the car overnight, but not for driving.

Condoms found Garp the way ants found sugar. He traveled miles, he changed continents, and there--in the bidet of the otherwise spotless but unfamiliar hotel room...there--in the back seat of the taxi, like the removed eye of a large fish...there--eyeing him, from the bottom of his shoe, where he picked it up, somewhere. From everywhere condoms came to him and vilely surprised him.

Condoms and Garp went way back. They were somehow

joined at the beginning. How often he recalled his first condom shock, the condoms in the cannon's mouth!

It was a fair poem, but almost no one read it because it was gross. Many more people read his essay on Ellen James vs. the Ellen Jamesians. That was news; that was a contemporary event. Sadly, Garp knew, that is more interesting than art.

Helen begged him not to be baited, not to get involved. Even Ellen James told him that it was her fight; she did not ask for his support.

"More fucking around in the garden," Helen warned. "More bookshelves."

But he wrote angrily and well; he said more firmly what Ellen James had meant. He spoke with eloquence for those serious women who suffered, by association, "the radical self-damage" of the Ellen Jamesians--"the kind of shit that gives feminism a bad name." He could not resist putting them down, and though he did it well, Helen rightly asked, "For whom? Who is serious who doesn't already know the Ellen Jamesians are crazy? No, Garp, you've done this for them--not for Ellen, either. You've done it for the fucking Ellen Jamesians! You've done it to get to them. And why? Jesus, in another year no one would have remembered them--or why they did what they did. They were a fashion, a stupid fashion, but you couldn't just let them pass by. Why?"

But he was sullen about it, with the predictable attitude of someone who has been right--at all costs. And, therefore, wonders if he was wrong. It was a feeling that isolated him from everyone--even from Ellen. She was ready to be quits with it, she was sorry she had started it.

"But they started it," Garp insisted.

Not really. The first man who raped someone, and tried to hurt her so she couldn't tell--he started it,

said Ellen James.

"Okay," Garp said. "Okay, okay." The girl's sad truth hurt him. Hadn't he only wanted to defend her?

The Steering wrestling team whipped Bath Academy in the season's final dual meet and finished 9-2, with a second-place team trophy in the New England tournament and one individual champion, a 167-pounder whom Garp had personally done the most work with. But the season was over; Garp, the retired writer, once more had too much time on his hands.

He saw a lot of Roberta. They played endless games of squash; between them, they broke four rackets in three months and the little finger on Garp's left hand. Garp had an unmindful backswing that accounted for nine stitches across the bridge of Roberta's nose; Roberta hadn't had any stitches since her Eagle days and she complained about them bitterly. On a cross-court charge, Roberta's long knee gave Garp a groin injury that had him hobbling for a week.

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