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Zoe sat up in bed and reached out a detaining hand, placing it on his naked thigh. 'I could come to London with you.' His hand lifted hers from his thigh and she had the oddest notion that he resented her touch. 'We could move to your apartment n-now-—' she swallowed the lump that formed in her throat "—now Uncle Bertie's gone.'
Suddenly it seemed imperative to her that they discuss the future, and she didn't know why. 'We can put this house on the market—it's far too big; it's an anachronism in this day and age. Never mind one child—we would need a dozen even to begin to fill it.'
'So that's what this is all about?' Justin cut in. "I thought we agreed—no babies for a year or two. You would not be trying to blackmail me into changing my mind by threatening to sell the house?' he demanded hardly. 'Because, if so, you can forget it.'
'No, no, nothing like that,' she quickly denied. But as she searched his face he looked so cool and remote that once more Sara Blacket's words echoed in her brain, filling her with a dawning fear that she did not want to recognise. Instead she continued, 'I simply thought that the house could be a conference centre or a nursing home—something like that. It is very expensive to keep up; Judge Master said so himself.' She knew she was babbling but she wanted to keep Justin with her.
He leant forward, brought her small hand to his lips and brushed her knuckles with a kiss. 'You're probably right and if you want to sell it I'll arrange it, but it's not something one can do in five minutes.' And, pressing another kiss on the back of her hand, he added, 'And let me worry about the expense, little one. You try and get some sleep.'
She should have been reassured, but somehow she wasn't. Maybe it was the way he avoided her eyes, or perhaps the way he allowed her hand to fall from his, but she had the strangest notion that he was simply pacifying her as he would a troublesome child.
'I will if you stay with me,' she said slowly. She was testing him, and hated herself for it, but the events of the day had severely dented her confidence in her husband's love and she needed some sign from him, freely given, to allay her doubts and fears.
'I need my sleep even if you don't. I'm a lot older than you, remember.'
'Please, Justin, I need you tonight, simply to hold me. What with the funeral. . .' She didn't want to plead, but somehow it had become essential to her peace of mind and her trust in him that just this once he stayed all night. To her relief and delight he agreed.
'Let me dispose of the protection.' He grinned. 'I'll be back in a second.'
And he was. Zoe yawned widely and snuggled into the hard warmth of her cautious husband's arms. 'You're not old,' she whispered, a smile twitching her swollen lips. It was ridiculous—a more virile, powerful man than her husband would be hard to find, and yet somehow the fact that he should worry about his age made him seem touchingly vulnerable. It never bothered her.
Justin, true to his word, had the house valued by a prestigious estate agent with a view to selling the place. But to Zoe's amazement Justin informed her, before they actually put it on the market, that she was to have her twenty-first birthday party at Black Gables. It was all arranged; the guests had already been invited.
Apparently Justin had done it at Bertie's request. It had been his last wish that the party go ahead whether he was there to see it or not. Zoe was not absolutely convinced that it was the right thing to do only three weeks after her uncle's death, but, as usual, she gave in to her dynamic husband's wishes.
The next few weeks she passed in a kind of limbo, torn between grief for her uncle and her inability to get really close to her husband.
Justin was very busy as the new head of chambers, and she saw less and less of him. She tried to tell herself it was natural—he had more work to get through. But sometimes in the evening, after yet another solitary dinner, a devilish, tiny voice from the deeper reaches of her mind would rise up to taunt her with the thought that he had married her to please Bertie and get the firm. He had the firm and Bertie was no longer around to see if he neglected his wife. She found it more and more difficult to dismiss her suspicions, however much she tried.
Justin was no help. He rarely talked about his work but he did inform her that he would be staying in town on Monday evenings. He had taken over the job of boxing coach with a group of young offenders at an East End boys' club. Very laudable—and she believed him even as she missed him. But her inability to dismiss completely the conversation she had overheard on the day of her uncle's funeral was a constant source of unease.
She was a practical girl—with egotistical film-star parents she had had to be from a very young age. She knew she was being silly, letting Sara Blacket's catty remarks get to her. Justin loved her. They were married for heaven's sake!
But, however much she tried to convince herself, the doubt lingered. It didn't help that Justin seemed to spend longer and longer in London. He was working far too hard, but nothing she said could make him change.
She was smiling as she spun the wheel of her Mini Metro and headed up the drive to come to a halt, with a screech of brakes, outside the front door of the house. She had spent the day in London, and had had the rare pleasure of lunching with her husband at an exclusive restaurant before raiding Harvey Nichols. The bag lying on the passenger seat contained the most exotic gown she had ever owned.
She picked up the carrier-bag and chuckled as she dashed out of the car and into the house. She could not wait to see Justin's face when he saw her new dress. She wouldn't give a cent for his iron control tomorrow night—her birthday party. The gown was guaranteed to knock him dead. But why did she need to? The question hovered on the fringes of her mind, undermining her confidence.
Not bad—not bad at all, she thought, posing naked in front of the mirrored wall of the bathroom, sucking in her stomach, her small breasts rising enticingly. Were they bigger than usual? she wondered idly. Probably Justin's expert massage was to blame. She giggled and, with a happy smile illuminating her small face, spun round as the object of her thoughts strolled in.
'I didn't hear you,' she said delightedly. She had not seen him since last night and her eyes drank in the sight of the large, splendid bulk of him, clad in a plain black towelling robe that stopped mid-thigh, the deep V of the front exposing his broad, hairy chest. Her heart jumped in her breast as, eyes shining, she walked towards him, 'You must have got back when I was in the shower.'
'Mmm,' Justin granted, his gaze sweeping slowly over her silver-blonde hair, the perfect oval face, the finely arched brows, the huge, thick-lashed eyes, the small, straight nose and the wide full-lipped, rosy mouth, curved in a warm smile of welcome. His gaze lingered on the lips, then moved almost as if against his will down to the high, full breasts, the tiny waist and flat stomach, the softly flaring hips, his eyes darkening to black in the process.
Zoe, seeing his reaction and thrilled by it, moved closer and slipped a hand under the lapel of his robe. 'Thank you for the card and the roses. I love them,' she husked, thinking of the magnificent bouquet of red roses that had been delivered to the house earlier.
'My pleasure, birthday girl,' he drawled none too steadily.
She felt him tense as her fingernail scraped supposedly accidentally over a small, pebble-like male nipple. Perhaps she had been wrong about Justin; perhaps her fantasy of them in the shower was not so unlikely, she thought, excitement sizzling in her veins.
'Shall I help you to shower?' she asked throatily, glancing up at his tough face through the thick veil of her lashes in what she hoped was a seductive fashion.
His eyes flashed gold lightning as his arm swept around her waist and hauled her into his hard body, while his other hand caught her wandering one beneath his robe. 'You little devil,' he rasped, before covering her mouth with his own in a long, hard kiss.
When he finally released her she was dazed and breathless and aching. 'Justin. . .' She sighed his name. But, to her chagrin, he spun her round, patted her naked bottom, and almost pushed her out of the door.
'Tempting though the offer is, it's late. The guests will be arriving any minute. Get dressed and allow me to do the same.'
