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What is he asking? Whether non-Craker people like her can have babies, or whether she herself might have one? "If I were younger, then a baby might come out," she says. "But not now." Though her age isn't the deciding factor. If her whole life had been different. If she hadn't needed the money. If she'd lived in another universe.
"Oh Toby," says the Craker boy, "what sickness do you have? Are you hurt?" He puts up his beautiful arms to hug her. Are those tears in his strange green eyes?
"It's all right," she says. "I'm not hurt any more." She'd sold some of her eggs to pay the rent, back in her pleebland days, before the God's Gardeners had taken her in. There'd been infection: all her future children, precluded. Surely she'd buried that particular sadness many years ago. If not, she ought to bury it. In view of the total situation - the situation of what used to be thought of as the human race - such emotions ought to be dismissed as meaningless.
She's about to add, "I have scars, inside me," but she stops herself. What is a scar, Oh Toby? That would be the next question. Then she'd have to explain what a scar is. A scar is like writing on your body. It tells about something that once happened to you, such as a cut on your skin where blood came out. What is writing, Oh Toby? Writing is when you make marks on a piece of paper - on a stone - on a flat surface, like the sand on the beach, and each of the marks means a sound, and the sounds joined together mean a word, and the words joined together mean ... How do you make this writing, Oh Toby? You make it with a keyboard, or no - once you made it with a pen or a pencil, a pencil is a ... Or you make it with a stick. Oh Toby, I do not understand. You make a mark with a stick on your skin, you cut your skin open and then it is a scar, and that scar turns into a voice? It speaks, it tells us things? Oh Toby, can we hear what the scar says? Show us how to make these scars that talk!
No, she should stay away from the whole scar business. Otherwise she might inspire the Crakers to start carving themselves up to see if they can let out the voices.
"What's your name?" she says to the little boy.
"My name is Blackbeard," says the child gravely. Blackbeard, the notorious murdering pirate? This sweet child? A child who will never have a beard when he grows up because Crake did away with body hair in his new species. A lot of the Crakers have odd names. According to Zeb, Crake named them - Crake, with his warped sense of humour. Though why shouldn't their names be odd, to go with their general oddity?
"I am very happy to meet you, Oh Blackbeard," she says.
"Do you eat your droppings, Oh Toby?" says Blackbeard. "As we do? To digest our leaves better?"
What droppings? Edible poo? No one warned her about this! "It is time to go and see your mother, Oh Blackbeard," says Toby. "She must be worried about you."
"No, Oh Toby. She knows I am with you. She says you are good and kind." He smiles, showing perfect little teeth: enchantment. They are all so attractive - like airbrushed cosmetic ads. "You are good like Crake. You are kind like Oryx. Do you have wings, Oh Toby?" He cranes his neck, trying to see behind her. Maybe the earlier hug was only a stealthy way of feeling her back for the feathered stubs that might be sprouting there.
"No," says Toby. "No wings."
"I will mate with you when I am bigger," says Blackbeard. He offers this heroically. "Even if you are ... even if you are only a little blue. Then you will have a baby! It will grow in your bone cave! You will be happy!"
Only a little blue. It must mean that he recognizes her comparative age, though old is not something the Crakers have a word for. "Thank you, Oh Blackbeard," says Toby. "Now run along. I have to eat my breakfast. And I must go and visit Jimmy - I must visit Snowman-the-Jimmy, to see if his sickness is better." She sits up and plants her feet squarely on the floor, a sign for the boy to leave.
Though not a sign he understands. "What is breakfast, Oh Toby?" he says. She forgot: these people don't have meals as such. They graze, like herbivores.
He eyes her binoculars, pokes her stack of bedsheets. Now he's stroking her rifle, where it stands in the corner. It's something a normal human child might do: idle fiddling, curious handling. "Is this your breakfast?"
"Don't touch that," she says a little sharply. "That is not breakfast, that is a special thing for ... Breakfast is what we eat in the morning - the people like me, with extra skins."
"Is it a fish?" says the boy. "This breakfast?"
"Sometimes," says Toby. "But for breakfast today, I will eat part of an animal. An animal with fur. Perhaps I will eat its leg. There will be a smelly bone inside. You wouldn't want to see such a smelly bone, would you?" she says. That will surely get rid of him.
"No," says the child dubiously. He wrinkles his nose. He seems intrigued, however: who wouldn't want to peek from behind the curtain at the trolls' revolting feasts?
"Then you should go away," says Toby.
Still he lingers. "Snowman-the-Jimmy says the bad people in the chaos ate the Children of Oryx," he says. "They killed them and killed them, and ate them and ate them. They were always eating them."
"Yes, they were," says Toby, "but they were eating them in the wrong way."
"Were the two bad men eating them in the wrong way too? The ones who ran away?"
"Yes," says Toby. "They were."
"How are you eating them, Oh Toby? The legs of the Children?" His huge eyes are fixed on her as if she's about to sprout fangs and pounce on him.
"The right way," she says, hoping he won't ask what the right way is.
"I saw a smelly bone. It was behind the kitchen. Is it breakfast? Do the bad men eat such bones?" says Blackbeard.
"Yes," says Toby. "But they do other bad things too. Many bad things. Much worse things. We must all be very careful, and not go into the forest by ourselves. If you see those bad men or anyone like them, you must come and tell me right away. Or tell Crozier, or Rebecca, or Ren, or Ivory Bill. Any of us." She's gone over this point several times with all of the Crakers, the adults too, but she's not sure they've taken it in. They gaze at her and nod, chewing slowly as if thinking, but they don't seem frightened. It's worrying, their lack of fear.
"Not Snowman-the-Jimmy or Amanda," the boy says. "We can't tell them. Because they are sick." At least he's grasped that much. He pauses as if considering. "But Zeb will make the bad men go away. Then everything will be safe."
