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I’d tell him another time. Another way. But not like this in the face of utter humiliation. I couldn’t watch him move on with another girl .
I walked toward the door with every intention of going straight to the car. But I couldn’t help it. As much as I wanted to walk right out the door, I needed one last look. One reminder that he had moved on and I was the one holding on to a summer crush. One more snapshot of Blake to remember. This moment needed to be preserved .
Because I would need it later when I held our baby. I would need to remember why I had to do this on my own. I couldn’t raise a baby with a man who didn’t want me. A man who didn’t love me as wildly as I loved him. What kind of life would I offer our child that way? This baby wasn’t bigger than a grain of rice and I already felt the strongest connection and maternal instinct for its happiness. It was my responsibility to give our baby everything in this world. And that might not include two parents who were in a relationship together, but it could include a mother who loved tirelessly .
I couldn’t put it all together in this second. Blake would have a role. He could be involved, but like hell if I was going to confess every love sick emotion I had felt. My heart broke and shattered with the realization that I had missed my chance with him again .
As I pivoted on my heels and looked across the bar, he saw me. Shit! Panicked and flustered, I slid through the narrow entrance and ran to the car. Oh my God, where were my keys? I fumbled through my oversized bag in front of the driver side door and dropped the keys on the pavement .
“Shit.” I crouched down, searching under the car for the keys .
“Sierra?” Blake walked over to where I was a shaking, nervous wreck. He dropped to the parking lot and scooped up the keys from behind the front wheel .
“Hey.” I let a nervous reply eek from my lips as I tried to stand .
Blake hopped to his feet. “What are you doing here ?”
“I-I…” None of the prepared speeches I had rehearsed on the plane or in the car seemed to fit this moment. Seeing him with Cece had changed all of that .
I’m having your baby seemed like a ridiculous thing to say right now .
“I don’t even know what to say.” He stepped closer, causing my senses to buzz from the nearness .
“I should get going. Just popped by to say hi.” I reached for the keys that were in his fist .
Blake scanned my eyes. “What? That’s it? I haven’t seen you in almost two months and you’re just out of here ?”
I froze. What in the hell did I do now ?
Thirty-Eight
Blake
I had no idea what was going on with this girl. I thought I had seen a damn mirage when I looked over at the bar door and
locked eyes with her. Nothing was going to stop me from running after that blonde, just in case it was Sierra. I knew I had it bad .
There wasn’t enough whiskey or beer last night to drink her out of my head, and I had sure as hell tried .
I thought I saw Sierra everywhere I went. The girl I spun around in the grocery store yesterday almost clocked me. Even my cousin, Cece, had started teasing me about it. The music helped; singing about Sierra helped. When those notes were in the air and I could sing about her, my heart didn’t hurt quite as much for that one song. Taking a hit on the field, or scoring a touchdown took the edge off. But, now here she was, already running out of town, and she hadn’t been here five minutes .
“I shouldn’t have come. Big, big mistake.” She fiddled with the door handle, suddenly very clumsy. “I don’t know what I was thinking. I’ll call you later .”
I reached around her and took the keys from her hand. “Call me later ?”
I wasn’t letting her out of here until we had it out. I was still a little drunk. Drunk enough I wasn’t going to hold anything back .
Her eyes fell to the pavement. She pinched her lips together .
“Say something before you leave. Have a beer with me at least?” I realized I might be begging a little, but this was crazy .
“I think you’ve got that covered. Cece’s keeping a barstool warm for you, isn’t she ?”
“What?”
“I saw you two. You don’t have to say anything else. We’ll talk another time. Just let me go, Blake .”
I laughed. Once it started, I couldn’t stop. I wiped the tears that started squeezing from the corners of my eyes .
