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But where’s the door?
I open the note and read it again.
Sebastian hasn’t been a very good friend to you, Teague.
Friends shouldn’t keep such secrets from other friends.
I think I know what door the message is talking about.
Darkness Overload
SEBASTIAN
I leave Liam’s office building and don’t stop until I’m home and the minute I get here I raid my apartment for whatever liquor I have and find a few bottles of tequila that I’ve kept aside for entertaining purposes and never touched.
But now is a good time as any to start becoming an alcoholic.
Suddenly, I see why Holden does it, why Teague does it too, it’s fucking cathartic. Every word that Liam spoke I can still hear it, over and over again inside my head like a bloody metronome and the fuck of it is that he’s right. He’s right about it all. I am weak and pathetic and a whole lot more. I’ve been this way since I was born. I’ve never been able to stand up for myself and I’ve only let people walk all over me because I care too much. And people do it because I let them. I’ll catch you before you fall, he said! I’ll love you like no one’s loved you before, Sebastian! Lie! Lie! Lie! He doesn’t love me! He’s just obsessed with me. He wants me like a prize, something he wins and then keeps aside as a trophy; he wants me to be another reminder of his greatness! As if he doesn’t have enough of those already! No, he wants to add one more to the collection! That’s what I am to everyone! A part of a collection. No one is with me for me, my friends they don’t even know the real me so how can they possibly be with me for me? They think I’m some nerd, hotshot who has it all together and who sleeps with girls!
The more I drink though, the more the pain becomes familiar. It doesn’t hurt any less but it becomes a little faded.
The fuck of it is that I was falling in love with that bastard.
I don’t know why, but today when he was trying to arouse me I was getting aroused! But I forced myself not to, how is that for normal people? How’s that for love? Happiness? There’s no such thing. Not happiness. Not love. At least not for me. This will be my life, watching my friends pine over their loved ones and I will sit on the sidelines forever.
I’m looking for some more tequila, when I find something.
It’s a switchblade.
A gift from Teague that I’ve kept ever since he gave it to me last year. It’s supposed to be branded or some shit, I don’t remember. I’m not good with weapons, that’s Teague’s thing. I push the button and the blade pops out. I don’t know if it’s all the alcohol or what but the thing looks beautiful.
I down more tequila shove the switchblade in my pocket and dial Mia’s number. She picks up on the second ring. “Hey Sebastian.”
“Mia,” I say. “How’re you?”
“Better.”
“I’m glad to hear it.”
“Yeah. The doctors say I must have passed out from the fear. It’s not really that serious. I guess that guy wasn’t really trying to hurt me.”
“He was Mia,” I say. “He was trying to hurt you. Maybe he missed or Teague didn’t give him enough time, I don’t know but he was there to hurt you severely.”
“Sebastian?” she says. “How do you know?
“Because Liam sent him,” I blurt. “Well, Liam and Ashley both. Ashley loves Teague, not surprisingly, even though she hides it front of you. And Liam…well…he has his own moti
ves that I can’t really get into right now. But suffice it to say, they wanted you out of the picture, Mia. They wanted Teague to be free so Ashley could move in. It was all a plan. And it looks like it worked, because I know for a fact that you and Teague aren’t talking anymore.”
“Why aren’t you going to the cops?”
“Come on, Mia. Liam can bribe all the cops he wants.”
“Why’re you telling me?”
“Because,” I say. “You and Teague have something beautiful, Mia and you’re constantly fucking it up!” I know I’m yelling now but I can’t seem to stop myself. “I mean someone like me would kill to have a relationship like that, Mia! You need to put more effort into making this work you can’t just break up every time shit hits the fan!”
“Sebastian, I have to go.”
