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The two girls holler and yell and agree. “Well then,” Liam says. “Who needs a ride in the limo?”
Just Let Go
LIAM
All through the ride, Sebastian has been distracted. He’s trying to act like nothing’s bothering him and his friends are buying it but I’m not that easy to fool. So the minute we get to my place and the party begins, I take Sebastian into my room and lock the door.
“Liam,” Sebastian says. “You don’t have to lock the door.”
I go towards him and kiss him on the mouth, hard. “Yes, we do.”
“Look, this isn’t the time for a quickie, Liam.”
“That’s not what I’m interested in either,” I say. “Now tell me what’s bothering you.”
“Nothing.”
“Yeah…I’m not buying it.”
“Can’t you just let it go this one time?”
“All we ever do is let go of things you aren’t comfortable talking about.”
He looks distraught. “Sebastian, Talk to me.”
“I hate it,” he announces.
“You hate what?”
“Us having to hide this,” he says. “Watching you kiss someone else! A woman at that and watch her come on to you and not be able to do anything about it! All of it!”
“Sebastian,” I say. “It was your idea to pretend that we’re straight. You even picked those girls. You wanted to give your friends a show, not me!”
“I know that.”
“Sebastian,” I say, holding out my hand. “Come with me.”
“Where?”
“Outside,” I say. “So we can announce it to everyone that we’re going out. I’ve done it before, trust me it’s not that hard.”
“I’m not ready, Liam.”
“You’ve been saying that for months now. Is it me? Am I making it hard for you to make a decision, is that it? Maybe if it was someone else, someone you could see yourself having a future with…”
“No, Liam! It’s not that. This has nothing at all to do with you. If there’s anyone I’d come out with, it would be you. I mean it.”
“I sense there’s a ‘but’ coming.”
He drops on the bed heavily and starts to sulk. “There are things about me you don’t know, Liam.”
I go over to him and sit next to him. “Then tell me. I’m right here.”
I can see that he’s fighting to keep the secret that he’s been holding on to. “Sebastian,” I say, holding his hand. “I’m going to say something that I’ve never said to anyone before. I know people think relationships are based on honesty and all that, but fuck that. Not every relationship is the same; we don’t have to go by some fucking rulebook. The first thing you need to know, is that there is nothing…nothing at all in this world that you could tell me that would change my mind about you, Sebastian, or that would make me stop loving you any less. Second, this big secret that you’re keeping from the world, from me, Sebastian, that you think you can’t tell me because you’re afraid I’m going to run the other way, keep it. Keep it a secret for as long as you want, you have my permission, just please don’t feel bad about it.”
Sebastian turns to me. “What did I do to deserve you?”
“Look,” I say. “I’m not as great as you make me out to be. I have problems too, I’m not perfect. I’m just in love with you.”
