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Enough was enough. I couldn’t live like this anymore.
I waited another half an hour when Rylee stirred from her slumber and sleepily stumbled to the kitchen for her coffee.
“Morning,” she called toward me as she rubbed her eyes.
“Good morning, beautiful,” I whispered before I sipped at my mug of coffee.
“Spencer!” Rylee chastised in a hiss. “You shouldn’t say things like that. What if Mom heard you?”
“That’s exactly what I want us to discuss,” I said as I stood and approached her. “I don’t want to hide how I feel anymore and I don’t think I should have to, but until you tell Robin everything, I know I can’t and it’s breaking my heart. Besides, I want to be able to be a father – a real father – to Jayden. Robin needs to know the truth.”
Rylee’s eyes widened and she nibbled on her bottom lip. “I know, I know. You’re right, Spencer, but I’m just so worried about what she’s going to say…”
“No matter what, Rylee, I promise I’ll be here by your side every step of the way.”
26
Rylee
The rest of the morning, I was jittery and nervous. I tried to calm myself down by taking a soak in the hot tub while I watched Jayden playing on the sand, but even that couldn’t quell my anxiety about what was going to happen that day. This tropical paradise on the island of Hawaii had done so much to alleviate my fears about Halston and the gossip that we were going to incur. Spencer and I had created our own little bubble where we could spend time together and enjoy each other’s company. Here in Hawaii, I didn’t have to pretend to anyone that Spencer was my mom’s boyfriend. No, instead, I had to pretend to my mom that Spencer wasn’t my boyfriend.
I groaned as I sat enjoying the bubbling water surrounding me. The lies were becoming too tangled for me to keep up with and I was sick of it. I didn’t want to live my life based on lies. I wanted to come clean, but still, I was afraid. My mom had never met one of my boyfriends before and there was no telling how she might react when she found out I was dating Spencer. Most people were opposed to age differences and mine and Spencer’s age difference was rather substantial. He was quite literally old enough to be my father with twenty-four years between us. But love came in many forms and didn’t restrict itself to age, at least, that’s what I believed.
What did my mom believe?
I took a deep breath as Jayden came up to me rubbing his eyes. “Mama, nap nap,” he said in a quiet voice before yawning.
“Okay, darling, just give Mommy a minute,” I told him as I began to pull myself out of the tub.
Once I pulled a robe on, I lifted my son up and carried him into his bedroom and tucked him in. He fell asleep immediately without even so much as a bedtime story. “Poor tyke, you must have been exhausted,” I whispered as I stroked his sweet, blond hair away from his face.
I stood there watching him sleep soundly for a little while and I reminded myself that I was doing this for the sake of our family. Despite all my worries, Spencer had proven how much of a good father he could be for Jayden and I didn’t want him to grow up without a dad if he didn’t have to. I had to be strong for all of us now.
With a nod of my head to myself, I left Jayden’s room and bumped into Spencer waiting for me in the hallway. He smiled softly at me and I sighed.
“It’s now or never, sweetie,” he said to me, reaching out to take my hand in his. “Are you ready?”
I took in a nervous, shaky breath before replying, “I’m not going to lie, Spencer, I’m still worried. I don’t want to upset my mom or ruin our relationship, but at the same time, I can’t keep living this lie anymore.”
Spencer nodded. “Me too,” he confessed before putting his arms around me and pulling me into a warm, comforting hug. “I know this will be hard, but it’s something we have to do in order to get the future we want together.”
I nodded in agreement and held him close. I could feel his heart beating in his chest and it soothed me more than I thought it would. “Okay, let’s go.”
The two of us headed for the living room where we knew Mom was sitting and reading. When we entered, she had her book closed on her lap and she was gazing out of the glass doors which led to the private beach. It was a bit cloudier today than it had been throughout the rest of their vacation, so the sky looked gray and a little darker than usual, but it was still a picturesque sight.
