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“I wish we could be friends,” I accidentally say out loud. I’ve held those words in for so long it feels like I’ve dropped a bombshell. He’s so silent I think maybe he didn’t hear me. But then he casts me a look so contemptuous that I feel a painful twist inside.
“We’ll never, ever be friends.” He says friends like he’d say the word pathetic.
When he slows the car at the front of the bar I’m out and running before he’s even come to a complete stop. I hear him shout my name, annoyed. I register that he calls me Lucy.
I see Danny at the bar, bottle of beer dangling from his fingertips, and I pinwheel through the crowd and fall into his arms. Poor old Danny, who has turned up early like a gentleman, with no idea what kind of crazy woman he’s agreed to spend an evening with.
“Hi.” Danny is pleased. “You made it.”
“’Course!” I manage a shaky laugh. “I need a drink after the day I’ve had.”
I hoist myself like a jockey onto the barstool. Danny signals to the bartender. Identical baseball bats swing on huge screens positioned above the bar. I feel the memory of Joshua’s mouth on mine, and I press my shaking fingertips to my lips.
“A big gin and tonic. As big as you can, please.”
The bartender obliges and I empty half of the contents into my mouth and maybe a little down my chin. I lick the corners of my mouth and I still taste Joshua. Danny catches my eye as I lower the glass.
“Is everything okay? I think you need to tell me about your day.”
I take a good look at him. He’s changed into some dark jeans and a nice button-down check shirt. I like that he’s made an effort to go home and change for me.
“You look nice,” I tell him honestly, and his eyes spark.
“And you look beautiful.” His tone is confidential. He leans his elbow on the bar and his face is open and without malice. I feel a weird bubble of emotion inside my chest.
“What?” I wipe my chin. This man is looking at me like he does not hate me. It’s bizarre.
“I couldn’t exactly tell you at work. But I’ve always thought you were the most beautiful girl.”
“Oh. Well.” I probably turn bright red and I feel a tightness in my throat.
“You don’t take compliments well.”
“I don’t get many.” It’s the honest truth. He just laughs.
“Oh, sure.”
“It’s true. Unless it’s my mom and dad on Skype.”
“Well, I’ll have to change that. So. Tell me all about you.”
“I work for Helene, as you know,” I start uncertainly.
He nods, his mouth quirking.
“And that’s about it.”
Danny smiles, and I nearly reel backward off my barstool. I’m so badly socialized I can barely converse with normal human beings. I want to be at home on my couch with all of the pillows piled on my head.
“Yes, but I want to know about you. What do you do for fun? Where’s your family from?”
His face is so open and guileless. I think of children before the world ruins them.
“May I go and freshen up first? I came straight from the office.” I swallow the other half of my glass. The faint mint on my tongue deadens the flavor.
He nods and I make a beeline in the direction of the bathrooms. I lean against the wall outside them and take a tissue from the front of my bra and press it to the corners of my eyes. Beautiful.
A shadow darkens the hall, and I know it’s Joshua. Even in the furthest corners of my peripheral vision, his shape is more familiar than my own shadow. He’s holding the coat I left in his backseat.
