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But nothing would turn her from her decision.
Only on the beginning of the third night did I realize that she was really going. Up until then, I had thought that such was absolutely inconceivable. I couldn't lose her. No, such a thing could not happen.
At last, I begged her to sit down and listen to me as I poured out my honest heart, confessing every bad thing which I had said, every cheap denial of her which had come from my lips, every desperate foolish thing I'd said to Pandora.
"But what I want now is to talk of you and me," I said, "and how it's always been between us. "
"Yes, you may do that if you wish," she said, "if it makes the pain less for you, but Marius, I am going. "
"You know how it was with me and Amadeo," I said. "I took him into my house when he was very young and gave him the Blood when mortality gave me no quarter. We were Master and pupil always, and there was mockery and a dark division. Perhaps you never saw this, but it was there, I assure you. "
"I saw it," she said. "But I knew your love was greater. "
"And so it was," I said. "But he was a child, and my man's heart always knew there was something finer and greater. Much as I cherished him, much as the mere sight of him delighted me, I could not confide to him my worst fears or pains. I could not tell him the tales of my life. They were too big for him. "
"I understand you, Marius," she said gently. "I always have. "
"And Pandora. You saw it with your own eyes. The bitter quarrel again, just as it had been so many centuries ago, the bitter fighting in which no real truth can be discovered. "
"I saw it," she said in her quiet way. "I follow your meaning. "
"You saw her fear of the Mother and the Father," I pleaded. "You heard her say that she couldn't come into the house. You heard her speak of her fear of everything. "
"I did," she answered.
"And what was this one night between me and Pandora but misery, as it had been long ago, misery and misunderstanding. "
"I know, Marius," she answered.
"But Bianca, what has it always been with you and me but harmony?
Think of our long years when we dwelt in the shrine, and went out on the night winds where I could carry us. Think of the quiet between us, or the long conversations in which I talked of so many things and you listened. Could two beings have been closer than we were?"
She bowed her head. She didn't answer.
"And these last years," I pleaded. "Think of all the pleasures we have shared, our secretive hunting in the forests, our visits to the country festivals, our quiet attendance in the great cathedrals when the candles burn and the choirs sing, our dancing at the Court Balls. Think of all of it. "
"I know, Marius," she said. "But you lied to me. You didn't tell me why we were coming to Dresden. "
"I confess, it's true. Tell me what I can do to make up for it?"
"Nothing, Marius," she answered. "I'm going. "
"But how will you live? You can't live without me. This is madness. "
"No, I shall live quite well," she said. "And I must go now. I must travel many miles before dawn. "
"And where will you sleep? "
"That is my worry now. "
I was almost on the point of frenzy.
"Don't follow me, Marius," she said, as if she could read my mind which she could not.
"I can't accept this," I responded.
A silence fell between us, and I realized she was looking at me, and I looked at her, unable to hide a particle of my unhappiness.
