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"Wait, Pam. . . ." Sachs was thinking back. "You told me he was in school."
"I said I met him at school."
"And Poetry Club?"
"Well--"
"He was the adviser," Sachs said, grimacing. "And he coaches soccer. He doesn't play it."
"I didn't exactly lie."
First, Sachs told herself, don't panic. That's not going to help anything. "Well, Pam, this is . . ." And what the hell is it? She had so many questions. She asked the first one in her thoughts: "How old is he?"
"I don't know. Not that old." The girl looked up. Her eyes were hard. Sachs had seen her defiant and moody and determined. She'd never seen the girl this way--trapped and defensive, almost feral.
"Pam?"
"I guess, maybe, like forty-one or something."
The no-panic rule was starting to crumble.
What the hell should she do? Yes, Amelia Sachs had always wanted children in her life--spurred by memories of the wonderful times she'd spent with her father--but she hadn't thought much about the tougher job of parenting.
"Be reasonable" was the guideline here, Sachs told herself. But it was about as effective as "Don't panic" at the moment. "Well, Pam--"
"I know what you're going to say. But it's not about that."
Sachs wasn't so sure. Men and women together . . . To some extent it's always about that. But she couldn't consider the sexual aspect of the problem. It would only fuel the panic and destroy the reasonable.
"He's different. We have this connection. . . . I mean, the guys in school, it's sports or video games. So boring."
"Pam, there are plenty of boys who read poetry and go to plays. Weren't there any boys in Poetry Club?"
"It's not the same. . . . I don't tell anybody what I went through, you know, with my mother and everything. But I told Stuart and he understood. He's had a tough time too. His father was killed when he was my age. He had to put himself through school, working two jobs or three."
"It's just not a good idea, honey. There're problems you can't even imagine now."
"He's nice to me. I love being with him. Isn't that the most important thing?"
"That's part of it but it's not everything."
Pam's arms folded defiantly.
"And even if he's not your teacher now he could get into really bad trouble too." Somehow, saying this made Sachs feel that she'd already lost the argument.
"He said I'm worth the risk."
You didn't need to be Freud to figure it out: A girl whose father had been killed when she was young and whose mother and stepfather were domestic terrorists . . . she was primed to fall for an attentive, older man.
"Come on, Amelia, I'm not getting married. We're just dating."
"Then why not take a break? A month. Go out with a couple other guys. See what happens." Pathetic, Sachs told herself. Her arguments smacked of a losing rear-guard action.
An exaggerated frown. "Like, why would I want to do that? I'm not out there trying to hook a boy, just to have somebody, like every other girl in my class."
"Honey, I know you feel something for him. But just give it some time. I don't want you hurt. There are a lot of wonderful guys out there. They'll be better for you and you'll be happier in the long run."
"I'm not breaking up with him. I love him. And he loves me." She gathered up her books and said coolly, "I better go. I have homework." The girl started toward the door but then stopped and turned back. She whispered, "When you started going out with Mr. Rhyme, didn't somebody say it was a stupid idea? That you could find somebody who wasn't in a wheelchair? That there were lots of 'wonderful guys' out there? I bet they did."
