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“I’m sorry for not telling you earlier,” I said. “I just thought that period of my life was behind me.”
Matt smiled and looked up at me, sitting back and turning to face me. I could see in his eyes that he was open to talking to me, and immediately, I started to feel better. Matt was not just my husband, he was my best friend, my confidant, and the person I went to with anything.
“I love you so much,” I said. “I have been afraid that you wouldn’t understand what me and my roommates had together. I can see how, if I were on the outside of things, I would have a really hard time understanding what it was all about.”
My heart was beating so fast, waiting for Matt to say something, anything that would make me know that he was still right there with me like he always had been. This was exactly the reason why I hadn’t told him about the four of us. I was too afraid that all the things that he loved about me would just dissolve. I was afraid that he wouldn’t like the crew anymore, too, leaving me with a husband that didn’t respect me and a bunch of people I loved cast out of my life.
“Well, that wasn’t what happened at my frat house,” he said, nodding slowly. “I won’t lie. There were some crazy stories about sex, but we tended to keep our wieners to ourselves. It was kind of in our code not to spend sensual evenings with each other in the frat house.”
“That would have been the most interesting fraternity on campus if you had,” I said, laughing hard.
The giggles flooded me, a welcome change from the anxiety that was clamping down on my chest from before. He always knew exactly what to say to break me from myself, making me feel like I was being too hard on my own heart, even when he wasn’t at all. He cracked a smile and started to laugh, laying his head against the back of the couch. He reached up and brushed the hair from my face, running his finger across my cheek. I closed my eyes, feeling his warm hand on my skin, feeling relieved that I wasn’t going to have to fight to get his affection back. I felt closer to him than I ever had before, and I realized that Kristin, though wild and brash, might just understand love even better than any of us. That was a hard pill to swallow since I always kind of saw Kristin as a wild card, getting her kicks wherever she wanted, and never really caring about love. The truth of it was, she probably cared more about love than me or Jessica. She just had a really strange way of showing it. It was obviously a way that her and Jason understood, and they were the only ones that mattered in the equation.
I smiled and climbed over onto Matt’s lap, wrapping my arms around his neck and looking deeply into his eyes. He smiled as I leaned forward, pressing my lips deeply against his and tasting the love and lust on his lips. Butterflies fluttered through my stomach, reminding me just how much I loved that man. He loved me, too, and I knew that, just like Jason had said. I didn’t need to hear him say it every day. I knew when he came home to me every evening, kissed me gently, and went through every moment in our lives, exciting, boring, and everything in between. I pulled back away from him and smiled, leaning in and pursing my lips by his ear.
“I have never wanted anyone else but you,” I whispered. “No matter what man I’ve slept with, no matter how many times I slept with other people, ever since the moment I laid eyes on you, you were the man I really wanted, in every way I could possibly want a man. You have given me the peace of mind, the love, the lust, and the emotions that have driven me through everything in my life. You are my best friend, my lover, and the man that I want to be with for the rest of my life.”
Matt leaned back and kissed me on the tip of my nose, smiling big. He looked at me as if he were contemplating what he wanted to say next. He wrapped his arms around my body and pulled me in closer to him.
“I feel the same way that you do,” he said. “I do have to admit, though, it certainly was a turn on when Kristin joined in earlier. I never thought I would feel comfortable with another person near us during sex, but watching what she did to you, how she pushed us together, and not apart, was extremely arousing in so many different ways.”
“It was unexpected,” I said, blushing. “But I won’t lie. It was extremely hot. I never thought I would feel comfortable with any woman touching you, or me when I was with you, but I knew that her touch wasn’t a threat, and it only made me want you more and more. It put a twist on our already amazing sex life. You felt so deep and so strong inside of me, and I was focusing on how much you filled me up, while automatically being taken to my climax. Like I said, it was extremely freaking hot.”
Matt looked at me with a smirk, nodding his head up and down. I was relieved to know that he found Kristin’s appearance in the bathroom just as hot as I had. He rolled his shoulders and bit his lip, looking as if he were replaying the memory over in his head. He rubbed his hand over his mouth and smirked.
“I came harder than I had in ages,” he admitted. “But it wasn’t because she was there. It was more than that. God, I don’t even know what I’m saying or what it has to do with anything. I just know that something was different, and it was so strong, and I instantly wanted more of you. I could have stayed in that bathroom for the rest of the day, just fucking you over and over again. What does that mean?”
“It means you are a red-blooded man who likes to have sex with beautiful women,” I said, smiling. “It means that you are able to understand that just because you love me, and just because I am the only woman in the world for you, it doesn’t mean that you have lost that desire. Just knowing that during all of that, you enjoyed being inside of me and watching me being pleasured, makes me feel so much closer to you. It makes me want you even more than I already do, which may not be a good thing for you.”
Matt threw his head back and laughed, picking it up and looking deeply in my eyes. He pulled his hands around my face and leaned in, pressing his lips deeply against mine. I could taste the Scotch on his lips and the desire on his breath, and that alone was extremely intoxicating. It got my mind wandering all over the place, thinking back to my days in college, thinking about the bathroom just an hour before, and thinking about how this vacation, with the help of Kristin, had brought me and Matt even closer than we already were. I felt like we had grown leaps and bounds in our partnership in just the time it took for an afternoon to pass by.
Suddenly, thoughts of Jason and Kristin passed through my mind, and the way that they lived their lives. I wondered if Matt and I could have a relationship like they did. I wondered if being in an open relationship was something that we were actually built for, and if it just took us being around people we were comfortable with to see that. I also wondered if it was something that Matt was thinking about and just didn’t want to bring to the surface just yet. Being honest was hard sometimes when fear was breathing down your neck, especially when it involved the person you loved most in the world.
I wasn’t really sure if I was ready for something that deep outside of that vacation. At least in the confines of the cabin with my closest friends, I felt like I could really enjoy myself like I had done in college with the three of them. Only this time, I would be enjoying my body with Matt by my side, watching him find extreme pleasure, watching the lust between us explode onto everyone else in the room. I would feel safe inside the cabin, but I wasn’t sure that I would feel comfortable back in the real world. Sharing Matt with a perfect stranger sounded absolutely terrifying, and even
though I knew it was just my mind falling back on what I thought a relationship should be like, I knew that it would take me a lot of time to get to the point where I was safe and secure enough to open up like that.
Giving into the temptation that Kristin was dangling in front of me would be like going back to the old days, except with the addition of a couple of really hot guys. Sometimes, it was really frustrating having Jason be the only dick in the group, and having a couple extra ones might make everything that much better. I realized, as the heat flooded between my legs, that I was getting really turned on again. I shifted in Matt’s lap several times, squirming around, trying to get comfortable and push away that gut feeling that I wanted to get laid on the couch at that very moment.
“What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours?”
“Honestly, I am feeling really horny again,” I said, leaning in and kissing his neck. “All I can think about is fucking you on the bathroom sink again. I swear, my libido is on overdrive for this trip, but I don’t mind if you don’t mind.”
“Well, I absolutely don’t mind,” he responded with a chuckle. “You know how I feel about having sex with you. It’s like my favorite thing to do.”
“Just another thing we have in common,” I said, giggling.
“Let me ask you a question,” he said, looking me in the eyes. “Does the thought of swinging turn you on?”
“I have to admit, yes it does,” I said, blushing. “Not with just anyone right now, but the thought of all of us going at it here in this cabin has got my panties more than wet.”
“I like when your panties are wet,” he said, biting my bottom lip. “And I like that you are into all of this. It’s exciting and different.”
Chapter 14
Jason
I walked up behind Kristin as she tossed the salad she was making in the wooden bowl, and I pressed my lips firmly against the back of her neck. I took in a deep breath, taking in her scent, and grabbed onto her waist, squeezing it tightly in my hands. She laughed, leaning her head back and kissing my lips before swatting me away with the towel on her shoulder.
