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“Oh, no. I don’t think so.”
“You just said you’re over the Dutch dickwad.”
“I am.”
She stares at me. “The first three months of college are the most action you’re supposed to get in your life. Have you so much as blinked at a guy?”
“I’ve mostly kept my eyes closed during all the wild orgies.”
“Ha! Nice try. You forget I know you better than anyone. I’ll bet you haven’t even kissed anyone.”
I pull the weird innardy parts out of the spring roll, wiping the excess grease on a paper napkin. “So?”
“So the guy I want you to meet tonight. He’s way more your type.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” Though I know what it means. It was absurd to think that he was ever my type. Or I his.
“Nice. Normal. I showed him your picture and he said you looked dark and mysterious.” She reaches out to touch my hair. “Though you should cut your hair into the bob again. Right now it’s more of a blob.”
I haven’t cut my hair since London, and it hangs down my neck in a messy curtain.
“That’s the look I’m going for.”
“Well, you’re achieving it. But anyhow he’s really nice, Mason—”
“Mason? What kind of name is that?”
“You’re getting hung up on a name? You sound just like your mother.”
I resist the urge to stab her through the eye with a chopstick.
“Anyhow, who cares? Maybe his name is really Jason but he just wanted to call himself Mason,” Melanie continues. “Speaking of, no one calls me Melanie here. They call me Mel or Lainie.”
“Two names for the price of one.”
“It’s college, Allyson. No one knows who you were. There’s never a better time to reinvent yourself. You should try it.” She gives me a pointed look.
I want to tell her that I did. It just didn’t take.
Mason actually turns out to be not that bad. He’s smart and slightly nerdy, and from the South, which explains the name, I guess, and he speaks in a lilting accent, which he makes fun of. When we get to the party on a desolate stretch of windblown street, miles from the subway stop, he jokes that he’s from the hipster police and do I have enough tattoos to be in this part of town. At which point Trevor shows off his tribal armband and Melanie starts talking about the “tat” she’s thinking of getting on her ankle or butt or other places girls get them, and Mason looks at me and rolls his eyes a little.
At the party, an elevator opens up directly into a loft, which is both huge and decrepit, with giant canvases all over the walls and the smell of oil paint and turpentine. It smelled like this in the squat. Another land mine. I kick it away before it explodes.
Melanie and Trevor are going on and on about this kick-ass band, whose grainy video they show me on Melanie’s phone. They’re congratulating themselves on seeing them at a place like this, before the whole world discovers them. When the band fires up, Melanie—Mel, Lainie, whoever—and Trevor hop to the front and start dancing like crazy. Mason hangs back with me. It’s too loud to attempt conversation, which I’m glad about, but I’m also glad that someone stayed with me. I feel my tourist sign flashing, and I’m on native soil.
After what seems like forever, the band finally takes a break; the ringing in my ears is so loud it’s like they’re still playing.
“Care for a libation?” Mason asks me.
“Huh?” I’m still half deaf.
He mimes drinking something.
“Oh, no thanks.”
“I’ll. Be. Right. Back,” he says, exaggerating the words like we’re lip-reading.
Meanwhile, Melanie and Trevor are doing a kind of lip-reading of their own. They’re in a corner on a couch, making out. It’s like they don’t notice anyone else in the room. I don’t want to watch them, but I can’t seem to stop myself. Seeing them kiss makes me physically ill. It’s hard to push that memory down. The hardest. It’s why I keep it buried the deepest.
