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“Ivan please.” She went to step back but he wouldn’t allow it. He cupped her cheeks and stared down into her eyes.
“Don’t be scared. We want this. We both have been fighting this. I will more than satisfy you Annabella. No lovers will compare to me.” He pressed his lips to hers. He felt her shiver as he slid his palm along her bare back and drew her closer against him by her hip.
He released her lips and began to kiss her neck.
“Ivan.” She whispered, and tilted her head back, giving him better access to her neck, her breasts as he started to slide the material of her dress down revealing more deep cleavage, more silky skin.
“When I say I’ve never done anything like this before, I mean never.” He felt confused, unsure where she was going with this and he stepped slightly back and held her by her hips.
The dress dipped so low he could see the swells, and deep cleavage of her full, delicious breasts. His cock hardened with need. It had been so long since he had sex and sought out relief. This felt different. He knew it was, because he didn’t go to a hotel, he brought Annabella here, to the penthouse. He would have brought her home to the estate but it would have taken way too long and he felt desperate to claim her his woman.
She looked away. “Oh God, this is
a lot harder than I anticipated.”
He scrunched his eyebrows together. “You don’t want to do this?”
“No, I want to, I just, I guess I need you to know that…well.”
He gave her hips a little shake. What was she doing?
“I’m going to come straight out and say it, and hope you don’t turn away as there’s more. There’s reasons why I’ve never done this.”
“I’m confused.”
“I’m a virgin.” She blurted out and it hit him. Right in his heart, to his soul, her words immediately shocking him. He stared at her, at her body, and thought about her personality and how she presented herself to others and handled men flirting.
She gripped onto his arms. “Please don’t be turned off. Oh God, I’ve said no so many times, so many you have no idea. Nothing felt right. No man felt right or made me want to, especially with the scars.”
“Scars?”
“Please Ivan, this is taking so much to let go.”
His mind went into a thousand directions suddenly. His life, his mistakes, his actions, and this gorgeous young woman before him, was a virgin? How the fuck? He ran his fingers through his hair and turned and almost started to pace.
“Ivan?”
“I don’t deserve you. I don’t.” He snapped at her and she shook her head. Stared up at him with tears in her eyes.
“I think we deserve one another. I think you have had bad things happen in your life that have made you so cold, so unwilling to share, to let down your guard and be free, just like me.”
He shook his head. “Just like you? What scars, what terrible, dark things have you experienced Annabella? Nothing compared to me, the things I was forced to do to live, to succeed and I’m not even talking about while I served in the military.” He snapped at her.
He stared at her as he rubbed his jaw. He couldn’t make love to her, be her first and only lover. Could he? Could he stand to live with himself for wanting that purity, that untouched gift a woman shared with the first man of her choice? The thought of her with any other man, with someone other than him in any way tore at his heart.
“There’s a reason why I held out Ivan. A reason not many know about, and I want to share that secret, that pain with you so you can understand.”
He stared at her, at her beauty, her strength, and the thought of wanting her so badly and somehow even more now that she was untouched made him feel like a dick. Who was he to deserve such a gift? He killed to get where he was. He was forced to kill his uncle when his uncle killed his family. He was the hunted for years, but something made him fight, made him relentless in his mission to overpower the bad people of the family and bring safety, security, money and power to the rest of the family that were loyal to one another and ultimately loyal to him.
Chapter Ten
Ivan did what he wanted to do when he wanted to. He had people on their knees begging to be accepted, had women, lots of women throwing themselves at him on a regular basis and when he needed to fulfill those carnal needs he sought those women out with no strings, no commitment, nothing more than the use of their bodies. He looked at Annabella. Sweet, sexy, stunning Annabella, a God damn virgin, and she wanted to give that to him?
“Ivan?”
“I don’t know what to say. I don’t deserve you. To be that man for you, yet the thought of you with any other man drives me insane.”
“As does the thought of you with any other woman drives me insane. Hell, my attitude over Cassandra and the obvious thing between the two of you, pretty much brought on the argument that led to this tonight.”
