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THE NIGHT I LOST MY MIND
PRESENT
The conversation with Miley plays over and over in my head as I walk into my house, dinner in my arms.
I set the bags on the kitchen counter, smiling at Peter as he types away at the dining room table.
“How’re they doing?” I ask, grateful that he was able to keep an eye on them while I ran some errands and picked up dinner.
“Fine,” he answers, not looking up. “Penny is reading in her room and Jilly is bothering her, I’m sure.”
Another smile blooms at how well we know our girls.
But it fades quickly when I remember that I have to tell him something. That if I managed to talk to Miley, I have to say something to him, too.
No matter if it shatters our peace, he has a right to know.
“Peter?” I ask, my voice uncertain as I approach him, my hands clasped together.
“What is it, Sabrina?” Peter looks up from his laptop, worry marring his features. I fucking hate that he works at the dining room table. He has a study that we spent months getting just right. I haven’t changed it since he moved out, still offering him the space that we’d created just for him.
And when I ask him why he never uses it, his answer is always the same.
I want to be present, even when I’m working.
A better father than I know what to do with. But an absent husband. A neglectful man who doesn’t see me anymore.
As he stares at me, waiting for me to speak, I take a shuddering breath, hoping it will give me the confidence to speak.
“He’s back,” I whisper, my confidence deflating.
I’m twenty-one again, falling in love with the unattainable. I’m twenty-five again, not having learned my lesson.
“Who…” and I recognize the moment it dawns on him. Fingers press into his temples as he processes the information overload.
Neither of us speaks.
But the unspoken words linger, regardless.
What now?
“You promised me he was out of the picture. What is he doing back here?” His words come out in a frenzy, his face reddening.
Peter doesn’t get angry. I don’t know how to handle him right now.
“I don’t know…I don’t—” I start to stumble and stammer, but he interrupts me.
“Ishewhy you asked for a divorce? It wasn’t enough to cheat on me with him,” he exclaims, and I glance at the stairs to make sure the girls can’t hear us.
“I didn’t cheat on you. You and I—”
“I loved you.” He pauses, lowering his voice. “I fucking loved you by then and I love you now.”
“You said you were okay with being casual—”
“Of course I pretended it was okay! Because if I hadn’t, I would’ve lost you. And now I’m losing you anyway.”
I don’t speak, afraid he’s going to interrupt me and further lose his temper. I don’t want Jilly and Penny to hear us.
