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We’ve been playing for about a half hour, I am a fucking genius. This game is almost as much fun as truth or dare. “I have had my heart broken more than once.” Becca says and throws back her drink. Campbell, Red, and Dick all throw back their drinks as well. Maddie and I look at each other and laugh.
“We obviously are the heart breakers.” I say holding up my hand to give her a high five.
“Hell yes, we are.” She gives me a high five and we are both hysterical. The others are giving us dirty looks, which just adds to the laughter. “Alright, alright, I had sex while someone else watched.” Maddie is still laughing while she takes a drink. What the fuck? No one else drinks, and we are all looking at her. “What? Don’t look at me like that.” Everyone else is giving her disgusted looks, but I find myself getting pissed.
“What the fuck, Maddie. Why would you do something like that?” I can’t help getting loud. I don’t understand why the fuck she does the things she does. I know I sleep around, I’ve had my fair share of women, but I always treat them with respect. I would never let someone else watch me fuck her. She looks over at me, still laughing.
“Relax, Young, it was only one time. Don’t act like it doesn’t turn you on. You can’t tell me you wouldn’t want to watch me fucking someone.” Fuck no she didn’t.
“Actually, Maddie, I can tell you that it doesn’t turn me on. When I’m with a woman, I’m with her. No one else is going to watch, or join. Why the fuck do you think it’s okay to treat yourself like that? You are worth so much more than that.” My hands are in fists at my side, as I’m trying to control my temper.
She stands up, throws back the rest of her drink, and tosses the plastic cup onto the coffee table. “Fuck you, Young.” She stalks off to her room slamming the door. I turn to look at everyone and they are all wide eyed.
“What the fuck?” I rub my face with my hands, trying to understand how we went from laughing to her getting so pissed at me. “I was just trying to make a point that she doesn’t respect herself. She deserves so much more than that.”
“I think coming from you it was more of an insult. No offense, Young, but you have been with a lot of women. She sees you as someone who understands her sleeping around. You made her feel slutty.” I look at Red and try to control my anger. I blow out a breath and rub my neck.
“I wasn’t trying to say she is a slut. I am trying to understand why the fuck she has no respect for herself. She is beautiful, smart, and sexy as hell and I just want to understand. I know I’ve slept around, that I’m an asshole most of the time, but I would never, ever treat a woman with anything but respect.” She is making me out to be an asshole here, but that was not my intention. I am just trying to fucking understand Maddie. She won’t open up to me, and it pisses me off.
“I’m going to go check on her.” Red starts to get up, but I jump up.
“No, I’ll do it.” I walk to Maddie’s room, knock on the door, and walk in. She is lying on her side on the bed, with her arms tucked under the pillow. I close the door behind me and sit on the edge of the bed. I rub my hands on my shorts and clear my throat. “Maddie, I’m sorry that I upset you.” She turns over to face me, and my heart breaks at the sadness I see on her face.
“Get the fuck out, Young. You act like you’re so much better than me—well fuck you. You sleep around just as much as I do, so don’t sit there and treat me like I’m some kind of fucking whore.” I am trying to control getting all worked up. I don’t want to yell. I’m going to be a fucking adult about this.
I lie down next to her and look right into her eyes. “Maddie, it was not my intention to get you upset. I am just trying to understand you. You don’t fucking open up and it kills me. I just want to get to know you, not just your body.” I give her a wink, just to let her know that I do love her fucking body. “I know I’ve slept around, I’m not denying that, but I have never disrespected a woman in or out of the bedroom. I’ve fucked her seven ways of Sunday, but it’s always just about her and me. I would never share that with anyone. I just want to understand why you would let that happen.” She is looking at me with a bit of maybe sadness in her eyes. She blows out a breath and clears her throat.
“It’s not like I didn’t want it to happen, Young. I like to try different things, that’s all it was. I don’t think that makes me a slut or a whore. I don’t feel like I disrespected myself in anyway. I love sex, that’s all it was about.” She goes to turn away from me, but I grab her hip to keep her facing me. She’s not going to fucking block me out now.
“Alright, I’m sorry. If it doesn’t bother you than it shouldn’t bother me. I’m sorry for making you feel that way.” I still don’t understand it, but I am not going to judge her for it. She is just looking at me with her hand tucked under her pillow. She looks like she is in deep thought. I take the hand not holding her in place and run it down her face. “Hey, you okay?” She lifts her eyes to mine and a brief smile crosses her lips before it quickly disappears.
“Yes, I’m totally fine. I’m just tired now, so I’m going to turn in for the night. Thanks for checking on me, I’ll see you tomorrow.” This time when she tries to turn away from me I let her go. I know when I’m being dismissed. Before I climb off the bed, I lean over and press a kiss to the back of her head.
“Good night, Maddie.” She doesn’t say anything, so I just climb off the bed and go back to my place to get some sleep myself.
It’s Monday morning and I am sitting in the garage waiting for the shop to open. I’ve got a few oil changes to do, tire rotations, and tune ups to get done today. At least I’ll stay busy, because I can’t get Maddie off my fucking mind. I didn’t see her yesterday, because the girls went and did some girly shit. I have been driving myself crazy trying to figure out a way to get her to be mine. I just can’t think of a way to make it happen.
“Tyler, what the hell are you in such deep thought about?” My dad, Dan, pulls me out of my thoughts. He hands me a cup of coffee and raises his eyebrows.
“Just thinking about shit, Dad.” I don’t know if this is something that I should run by him. My mom and he have been married for twenty-five years, so I don’t think he could be much help.
“So, you don’t want to tell your old man, is that it? The way you are sitting there, looking almost like a lost puppy, tells me that you need to talk about something. Maybe, I could help?” I look over my coffee at him and raise my eyebrows.
“Lost puppy? I don’t fucking think so. I just have a lot on my mine.” I take a sip of my coffee and figure what the hell could it hurt? “Alright, there is this girl.” That’s all I get out before he has a huge smile breaking out on his face.
“Well, this just got a hell of a lot more interesting. You finally find a girl you want more than just a bed partner?” Oh, for fuck sake. This old man knows too much about my sex life. I roll my eyes at him, but can’t help the grin on my face.
“Yea, I met a girl that I actually want to have a relationship with; the only problem is she doesn’t want a relationship.” I look down at my coffee, to avoid the look my dad will give me.
“Why doesn’t she want to have a relationship? Maybe, all the women you’ve been with are intimidating to her. Not all women want to be bedded you know.” I look up at him and start laughing.
“Dad, the only kind of relationship we have been having for over a year is sex. Believe me, sex is not the problem with this girl. She doesn’t believe in relationships.”
“So, you’re telling me that you and this young lady know each other intimately? You guys have had sex before?” He sits down in one of the chairs in the break room across the table from me, and wraps his hands around his coffee. He looks over at me waiting for an answer.
“Jesus Christ, Dad, yes. We have sex, lots of sex. We have sex all the time, at my place, her place, in my car. We have crazy, unbelievable sex, but that is all it is with her. She won’t spend the night; she won’t open up to me. She is fucking beautiful, smart as hell, and so sexy. I
thought that after all this time, I could convince her otherwise. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been driving myself crazy trying to think of a way for her to just give us a chance, but I can’t fucking think of anything.” It actually feels good to get this out in the open. I didn’t want to say anything to the guys because let’s face it; they would be relentless with giving me a hard time. Shit, I’ve done it to them.
