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“Fuck, stop. I’m awake!” I squeal, shivering from the frigid temperature of the water. My dress is soaked, my hair plastered against my face, and my makeup is most certainly ruined.
“You scared the hell out of me, Stella. You started convulsing, your eyes rolled back, and then you just passed out, like completely unconscious.”
I reach out and steady myself against the shower wall, glaring at him and watching in shock. “It’s fine, I’m fine Damon. Just let me out, please.”
Stretching his bare arms across the shower, he blocks me from stepping out. “You are definitely not fine, Stella. What the fuck was that?”
Suddenly, I hear a door inside the dorm room slam loudly, making the whole building shake. “Drake! Where the fuck are you?!” At first, I fear I’m just imagining his voice, haunting me like it has been lately appearing in every one of my wicked dreams and twisted nightmare, but the look that appears on Damon’s face, the apologetic smirk, tells me my fears are true.
“In here,” Damon calls out to him, lowering his head in shame. Fucking traitor.
Immediately he appears in the doorway, changed out of his earlier outfit, and now laid back in jeans and a black hoodie. His hair is still wet from the shower, disheveled like it gets when he constantly runs his fingers through it whenever he’s frustrated or anxious. One of my favorite things to imagine doing.
His gaze meets mine, and it’s not anger I see in the depths of his eyes, no it’s unfiltered rage, unequivocal fury.
“You fucking called him!?” I shriek, slapping Damon in the arm, nearly slipping out of the shower. Damon’s hands come around me quickly, catching me by the waist before I fall. Kai’s scowl deepens as he watches his friend's arms around me.
I meet Kai with a death stare of my own.
Beside me Damon looks shaken up, glancing between Kai and I, disturbed by the heated tension that could be cut through with a dull blade. His green eyes find me, an apologetic frown touching his lips. “What was I supposed to do, Stella? You looked like you were going through an exorcism. I had to call for help.”
I shake my head, tears clouding my eyes as my anger and frustration ripples through me, tearing down every bit of my sanity in its way. “You call 911 Damon, or campus police. You don’t callhim.”
Suddenly Kai is no longer angry. Now it's a grave concern seen in his eyes. “Do you need to go to the hospital?” he asks, his tone soft and apologetic. It doesn’t last, quickly shifting back to his usual crassness. “Drake, get your fucking keys. We need to take her to the hospital.”
These fucking idiots will be the death of me. “No, I’m not going anywhere with you two, especially not a fucking hospital. I’m fine. Just get out, please. I need to get out of this damn dress.” Both of them look at one another, yet neither of them moves a muscle. “Out!”
They finally obey. Although they both exit, neither of them closes the door.
I stumble out of the shower, rushing to push closed the door and locking it before tearing my dress off of me. Falling to my knees, tears flow endlessly out of my eyes, like acid against my heated cheeks, burning me, blurring my vision.
Stupid, stupid girl.
I don’t know what I was thinking, taking more than the recommended dose of my medication. The dosage written on the white label isn’t a suggestion, and I nearly paid the price. An accidental overdose, which would surely be ruled a suicide given my family history and track record.
Everyone in all of Hillcrest Hills by now knows of the embarrassment and humiliation I endured tonight. The mocking glares, the hushed whispers whenever I walked by. My attraction to Kai is no secret, neither is his disdain toward me. Pity is what our friendship is. Nothing but him feeling sorry for the girl nobody likes.
Even if it’s not how he truly feels, that’s what he proved when he kissed her. In front of the entire school, he showed up with Carrington but went home with Casey.
I close my eyes, bringing my face between my hands as I crouch forward, my elbows on the tile in front of me. I’m in nothing but my bra and panties, pretty much see through since they’re white and completely soaked.
How could I be so stupid? Kai continuously has shown me I mean absolutely nothing to him, yet here I am begging for scraps, coming up with excuses for why he does what he does. I don’t deserve this.
To hurt me. To push me away and keep me at arm’s length. I’ve gotten too close, managed to almost tear down the walls he’s built around his heart, and each time I chip away at the bars, he does something to hurt me.
Tonight, it was to kiss her, when I know the only other lips he’s had recently have been mine.
Come on Stella, I have my pick of prime pussy around here, Dollface. I’ll give you a call when your turn is up.
His cruel words from earlier tonight still sting as badly as they did when he said them after witnessing him kiss Casey, the entire school watching, mocking me. No one’s ever made me feel as pathetic, vulnerable, and inconsequential as he did that night.
My hands tremble at the memory, my teeth chatter, my stomach clenching in pain. No, no, no. This isn’t supposed to happen again. Not when I live already taken more than I should have. But it’s the telltale signs I can’t ignore.
I need another pill.
Moving toward the toilet, I shove my fingers down my throat, immediately heaving everything I’ve eaten today. Bile burns as I continuously vomit into the bowl, gripping the sides to hold myself upright.
I hear loud banging against the bathroom door, Drake, and Kai’s voice nothing but hushed whispers, muted by the sounds of my puking. With the back of my hands, I swiftly wipe my mouth, spitting the last before standing on my feet.
