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BECKA
The dark room felt just as lonely as it had the last week. The sheets beside me were cold and empty like they had been every time I fell asleep or woke up.
Luca was a mere wraith within the walls. Appearing suddenly and evaporating just as fast. Our conversations never lasted longer than a few minutes. And for such a big house it was amazing how closed in and constricting it became. Its warm, inviting nature no longer comforted.
I did my best to set a routine: work out, play violin, read, visit Arianna once she got back, but it felt like living a remake of Groundhog’s Day. Bill Murry, I feel your pain.
No matter how much I did to fill the day the repetition got old fast. And boredom was became daunting. My mind wondered to the things I had filed away the past weeks when more pressing concerns had taken precedence.
Is this what the rest of my life is going to look like? Can I be happy like this? Can I keep my sanity like this?The distance created by the lack of time together was already causing strain. Could I be complacent with this life? Married to a man who did God knows what all day and was rarely home.
What about when we have kids? How could I turn my back on my morals by telling our children what Dady does for work was ok? The answer: I can’t and I won’t.
No matter what, I had to find a way to make my marriage work. Because even if I hadn’t given my word, I couldn’t walk away now. Luca had moved into my heart. A single word flitted around in my brain, the jumbled letters trying to settle in the right order. And it scared me. Because if I felt it and said it to him, I would be admitting that I wanted to follow him and his life no matter where it took me.
God, help me.
I rolled over to my side snuggling in for sleep. It was still early but I had given up on waiting for Luca days ago. Loneliness cuddled in beside me like it did every night, my only constant companion. My eyes closed and I drifted off already knowing I probably wouldn’t see Luca until tomorrow morning. Maybe.
* * *
Strong, warms hands trailing down my hips and soft lips nipping at my neck woke me. Luca’s hard naked chest pressed into my back. I bowed into him rubbing my butt against his erection poking between my butt cheeks.
“Is it good night, or good morning?” I asked sleepily.
Luca brushed my shirt off one shoulder and rained kisses down on it. “Does it matter?” he whispered, pressing his naked body tight against me, his hunger for me evident.
“No.” Sleep washed away in a current of heat tingling between my thighs. I whimpered with need when he cupped my breast under my shirt, teasing my nipples with his thumbs. “I missed you.” For a moment I thought I might be dreaming. Luca was home. It felt like an eternity since he’d touched me.
“God, I missed you too. I’m sorry I’ve been so busy.” His shaft pressed against me harder, one hand reached down to wet his fingers in my folds then rub my bundle of nerves.
A moan climbed my throat, legs spreading wide for him. “Luca. I need you inside me,” I said breathlessly as his fingers worked me into a frenzy.
Fingers hooked my panties, sliding them slowly down my legs, then slid my shirt over my head. I was on fire for him. My core pulsed with anticipation. When I tried to roll over to face him, Luca pressed my front flat to the mattress and climbed over me.
Need sent adrenaline pumping through my limbs. I felt hot enough to combust as his weight settled over me, his hands pinning my wrists in a stone grip above my head. He flipped my hair up to expose my neck and back. I laid fully at his mercy, and loved it.
“You have the softest skin,” he whispered between my shoulder blades, while his erection pulsed against my butt. Luca put his knees between mine and pushed out, spreading me wide for him, making my breath hitch. His tip touched my soaked entrance and he groaned with sheer want. But didn't press forward.
I felt the groan in every one of my cells, causing sparks to ignite. The waiting, sweet torture. “Luca, I need you.”
Light kisses made my back shiver. “I love it when you beg.” More kisses. “Beg me.”
“Please Luca. I want you so bad.” I ground myself into the mattress trying to get friction on my throbbing clit. I could feel his smile against my skin. His lips were so hot they seared my flesh. Then his voice was in my ear.
“Tilt your hips up,” he commanded. I did so without hesitation. Luca held my wrists in place with one hand while the other went down to better line himself up. Without warning Luca thrust forward with merciless penetration, groaning loudly.
“Ahh.” I cried out, seeing stars behind my fluttering eyelids. He felt so good as he continued to move with hard thrusts in a slow rhythm, prolonging the pleasure with every movement as his weight pressed me into the sheets. My hands clenched into fists as waves of electricity stroked my senses.
“You always feel so good baby. I can hardly contain myself.” His grip on my wrists turned punishing.
“Oh God, don’t stop,” I begged as pleasure stole my ability to think. His speed increased.
“Fuck. I wanted to make this last, but you are going to make me lose control.”
“I want you too.” I wanted to feel the full strength of him poured into me. “Harder. I need you harder.”
Fingers bit into my chin as Luca turned my head to take my mouth. His energy changed from tame to feral with the flip of a switch. The kiss turned hard, with teeth and bite, giving me a taste of what I asked for. Then he pulled me up onto all fours and without hesitation began hammering into me with blinding force.
