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“God, you’d make a beautiful wife and mother. You’re caring, loving...how the fuck are you soperfect, doll? And then I think about our kids. What they’ll look like, what they’ll be when they grow up. Can you imagine that, baby? Us raising kids together? I can, baby. Just imagining raising them with you excites me.” She chuckles nervously at that. “And then I remember where we are...broken up...never getting back together. Shit, that thought makes me anxious. Like I can barely sleep at night with that thought in my head. But...it won’t change, will it? I’m not going to force it to change. So it’s up to you, doll.”
She’s staring at me, eyes welling with tears before she shakes her head. “Up to me?” There’s a hopeful, confused look in her eyes.
“Yeah. I want you with all I’ve got…but none of it matters if you don’t want me anymore.”
It hurts when I let go of her and walk into the house to get to my car. I can’t stay at this party, knowing she’s here. It was hard enough for me to say those things to her.
She’s leaving in a few days, and she probably doesn’t think I remember what I said that night I was drunk. She hasn’t even wanted to bring it up.
Fuck me, I can feel tears welling up in my eyes.
I’ve gotta stop this.
I. Need. To. Stop.
TO BE CONTINUED...
