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She chokes on her words, and concerned, I turn to look at her. Tears streak her face, and when her head rolls toward me, her big eyes are full of doubt and fear. I hate that she’s been taught to doubt her feelings. All evening, she’s been strong and confident, and I’ve enjoyed that about her, but her allowing me to see her vulnerability in this moment is just as beautiful.
“Maybe that isn’t so unattainable anymore,” I say. “What’s holding you back now?”
Her laugh is watery. “Literally nothing. I just haven’t let myself truly think about it until right this moment. And it just feels... scary. Exciting too, though. I mean, I have the money thing taken care of. That won’t be an issue. I would just need to find a space to fit my needs. I could start out small, maybe only offer a few classes a week until I find my feet.”
She speaks absentmindedly, like she’s talking it out with herself. Suddenly, she sits up excitedly, chewing on her lower lip in deep thought. I follow suit, stretching my legs out in front of me and resting against the back of the truck.
I could spend hours looking at her, watching every emotion play along her face. I can only imagine how expressive she is be in bed, and I do just that. I think about what her sweet sighs would sound like against my skin and how it would feel to be buried inside her as she falls apart around me.
My erection strains painfully against my zipper. I feel like a pervert, unable to focus on anything but the image of her beneath me, while she’s beside me, lost in thoughts of her future. Finally, she comes back down to earth, turning to me with a big grin.
“Yep, that’s what I’m going to do!” Energy radiates off her, the space between us buzzing with electricity.
“Well, my work here is done,” I say, dusting off my hands teasingly. She reaches out and grabs them in her own. Her excitement must fuel her bravery, because hesitantly, she pulls herself up to straddle my thighs.
I hesitate and take in a deep lungful of the night air. Her hands let go of mine, and they land on my shoulders before slowly sliding down to my chest.
Unable to stop myself, I grab her ass and pull her closer to me. I can barely breathe when the warmth between her legs settles on my lap. Her small moan of pleasure as I drag her across my cock tells me there’s no hiding my reaction to her—not that I even want to at this point. Her face is flushed, her eyes slowly traveling down to my lips. I know she wants me to kiss her. But I also know that I shouldn’t.
Her head is tilted back, her long neck on display, red lips parted.
She’s ready. Waiting.
“Kiss me, Chase,” she chokes out, igniting a war between my cock and my brain. I hesitate, searching her face for the answers I can’t seem to come up with on my own.
I’d love nothing more than to take her back to my cabin and forget the world around us for a few hours. It’s been so long since I’ve felt this kind of connection, since I’ve looked a woman in the eyes and felt the stress of the world just fade away.
Still, how can I move forward knowing that nothing can come of it? Knowing that if she knew the truth about me, she wouldn’t even be here, straddling my lap and begging me to kiss her.
I’m not sure how long I sit there like an idiot, but it must have been long enough for her to sense my tumble of thoughts, because all of a sudden, she straightens her spine and pulls away.
“Are you ready to take me home?” she asks quietly, hopping down from the truck bed without giving me a chance to respond. I open my mouth, but when the words can’t find their way out, I grab our stuff and follow behind her.
My mind is spinning, trying to make sense of what the hell just happened and struggling to put the right words in the right order to explain to this amazing woman that I want her but can’t have her. Before I can make sense of anything, she gets into the truck.
She sits quietly while I load up the back seat, never once turning around. After I settle behind the wheel, we sit in silence a little longer. I know stopping things was the right thing to do, but I still feel like the biggest asshole on the planet.
I spent all night flirting with her, touching her intimately, then I turned away from her when she was at her most vulnerable.
Yep, I’m a dick.
“Addison,” I begin, turning to face her. I don’t even know what to say at this point. Do I apologize? Do I come clean about my hesitations? Do I just drive her back to the cabin and forget this night ever happened?
“It’s okay, Chase. Seriously. I just got wrapped up in everything and, well, here we are. It’s all really embarrassing, so I’d appreciate it if you’d just take me to the cabin.” She dismisses me, turning back to face the windshield.
