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“Why?” Jeannie asked. “Do ye not like being a woman? They say the laird is a bonnie lover.” She carefully removed the gown.
“Don't speak of things ye don't understand,” Fiona said.
“But I do understand,” Jeannie replied. “I know all about how a man and a woman make love. Did ye not know that Margery and Elsbeth were sneaking out to meet their laddies in the weeks before their wedding? Margery is already with child. She was terrified that ye would learn of it before she wed her Colly. They told me everything I wanted to know about men and women so I would not tell you or Flora about their mischief,” Jeannie concluded smugly.
“They are only lucky I was able to procure their dowries,” Fiona said grimly, “else Margery's bairn be a bastard”
“What is a bastard?” Morag asked innocently.
Jeannie giggled, and even Fiona was unable to keep from laughing. “Don't fret yerself, our Morag,”Fiona told her baby sister. “’Tis not a word a proper young lady would use.”
“Are ye not proper, Fi?” Morag asked.
“No, I am not proper anymore, sweeting. That is why ye and Jeannie are to go and live with Lady Stewart. Look at all the fine clothes the laird has provided for ye. Yer a verra fortunate lass.”
And indeed the women brought in from the laird's cottages had worked hard to produce new wardrobes for Jean and Morag Hay. Besides their fine gowns, surcoats, and everyday gowns, there were sleeved camisias for sleeping, shertes, sewn stockings, and garters. Each had, too, a sturdy wool cape lined in rabbit's fur. The cobbler had come, measured their feet, and produced fine leather ankle boots. There were gauze head veils, and the laird presented each girl with a ribbon sewn with pearls for her hair. Neither would be embarrassed by her garments in the household of Hamish and Janet Stewart.
Flora and Tarn had arrived from Hay Tower, and to Fiona's surprise Flora fully approved of Janet Stewart's decision to take the two younger Hay sisters into her keeping. She never asked Fiona about her relationship with the laird, and she slept with her husband in a room next to the two littler girls.
The night before they were to depart for Greymoor, Fiona sat with her old servant by the fire in the hall, her head against the old lady's knee.
“Do ye not love me anymore, Flora Hay? In the week since ye came down from the ben ye have not scolded me once, and tomorrow ye will be gone.”
Flora caressed the raven-black hair on her young mistress's head. “What is there to say, lambkin? Ye set yer path that day on the ben when ye made yer infamous bargain with this laird.”
“Ye know I had no other choice. He would have taken the cattle without a moment's thought. Jeannie tells me Margery and Elsbeth met secretly with their laddies all the summer long, and that Margery was with child on her wedding day.’Tistrue I didn't know all that, but what else could I do, Flora?”
“There was nothing ye could do, my lamb. Ye remembered yer promise to yer own sweet mam to care for her lasses. She knew ye would have to sacrifice to keep yer promise.”
“Would she be proud of me, Flora?”
“Aye,” the old lady said, “but I canna help but think she would have hoped that ye wed with the laird. He has a good heart, my lamb.”
“The laird doesn't want a wife, and he doesn't want me in particular. He said I would besmirch the honor of the Gordons of Loch Brae. As if I wanted to wed the arrogant fellow!”
“Yemustmake him wed ye, lambkin,” the old servant said. “No other will have ye now that he has robbed ye of yer virginity.”
“Is that all a woman's worth is valued at, Flora? Her virginity and her ability to bear bairns? I want a man who will love me for more than those qualities, and Black Angus doesn't love me at all. To him I am no more than a thief. A thief who is now his mistress. When he is done with me, I shall return to the ben, but Anne, Elsbeth, and Margery are properly wed, and Jeannie and Morag will have fine husbands one day.”
“And ye have provided for my Tarn and me as well,” Flora said quietly. “I am happy to be off the ben. I never liked it, but yer mam was our lady, and then when she died, we could not leave her bairns.”
“I know,” Fiona said, “but now yer old bones willhave warm fires for ye to sit by while ye watch my sisters grow up. I would not have left ye on the ben.”
“There are things I must tell ye before I leave,” Flora said to her mistress. “There are certain precautions that ye can take to prevent yerself from having a bairn if ye don't want one. The seeds from the wild carrot, the plant with the lacy white flowers, will keep ye from mischief. Take a spoonful of the seeds, followed by a goblet of warm water. Or chew the seeds if ye will. A dose of pennyroyal can help, too. Don't bear the man a bastard if ye can prevent it, lambkin.”
“Greymoor isn't far,” Fiona said. “I'll come to see ye for advice as I have always done. I'm learning to ride a horse.”
Flora nodded. “Still,” she said, “I should have told ye before the laird bedded ye. If ye find yerself with a bairn, come to me, and I will help ye to rid yerself of it.”
Fiona was surprised by Flora's knowledge, but she was grateful for it. “How often do I take the seeds?”
“Once daily, and I'll give yer Nelly a bag of them to tide ye over until next summer when the plants bloom again. Yer mother used them when she wanted to defeat yer father of a son, though ‘twas not often enough. She feared he would learn of her deception, for he scattered his bastards far and wide.”
“Aye,” Fiona agreed. “He would have been suspicious, for he so wanted to regain the lands in the glen.” Arising from her seat upon the floor, she shook her skirts out, then offered Flora a hand, pulling her from her bench. “’Tis past time we were in bed, old woman.”
Hamish Stewart came for the two Hay sisters. “Yer sister, clever lass she is,” he said to Angus with a pleased grin, “seems to be breeding again. I hope it is another lad, for we surely have a houseful of lassies, and herewe are adding more.” He chuckled. Brown eyes twinkling, he glanced from his brother-in-law to the two girls. “Are these the little Hay girls, Angus?”
Amazed, Jeannie and Morag looked at Hamish Stewart. He was the largest man that they had ever seen. He stood at least six inches over six feet, and his big round head with its mop of hair was as red as fire, as was his bushy beard. “Be he a giant, Fi?” little Morag said, eyes wide.
