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Jax
…stop acting like a naïve girl. He has you and the half a million dollars you make every year where he wants you.
The words won’t stop playing in my head. I don’t know if it’s worse that her mother thinks I’m a user worse than the asshole sitting across from me, the human tampon that cheated on her daughter for years and lived off her.
“I guess you didn’t know how much she makes.” David grunts. “She kept that from me too.”
“For good reasons we all now know.” Sierra’s retort is met with the curling of his lip.
It hurts that her mother thinks this guy is a better option than me. She makes it seem like I’ve been fondling Saona at the dinner table and now she has to defend me. She has to justify me being in her life. Not to mention I just found out she makes a lot more money than I can imagine.
“Never heard Saona talk to her mom like that before. Things sure have changed.”
Those are the first words Sierra’s husband has had for me since we were introduced. He’s kept to talking to David, both muttering to each other through the evening. But there’s no mistake in the aim, or how he muttered it under his breath but loud enough for everyone to hear.
“She was always a good, obedient girl.” David’s mom adds.
“Hm. I guess six years of being used and cheated on would change anyone. I don’t think you need to be offering opinions about it, since people at this table did the cheating…and the using.” Sierra eyes laser from David to his mom while shoving another spoonful of rice into her mouth.
She winks at me but I don’t miss the way her gaze keeps darting in the direction of the kitchen.
“Saona.” Her mother calls out and in the next second she’s at my side.
Her face is darkened. “Can we please go?”
“Saona.” Her mother appears at the door.
She grabs my hand and starts walking. I say a quick goodbye to Sierra and nod to the rest.
“I don’t know what’s gotten into you. Now you disrespect me.” Her mother hasn’t moved from her spot and Saona spins hard and fast.
“No. I’ve never disrespected you and am leaving before I can. I need to cool off.”
We head out of the house and walk down the block. She’s not saying anything but pulls out the phone and brings up the Uber app. We stand in silence until the car gets there. Once inside, the only words are her greeting to the driver and it’s better that way.
My head is buzzing with everything that just happened. We went from a sexy, fun weekend that showed me just how much this woman means to me, to a lesson on how unsuitable I am for her. She has to know what her mother said about me not being on Saona’s level was true.
Mrs. Torres was wrong as all fuck about me wanting to use her daughter. I would never live off Saona or ask her for money. I would rather go hungry.
But our worlds are different like day and night. She went to a fucking Ivy League school. I scraped by to graduate with a three point zero.
I try to swat the thoughts away but they keep coming, as fast as this driver is flying through the Bronx streets to get to her place.
She’s just not moving and my chest tightens. Could she be thinking of all her mother said? While harsh, her words hadn’t been all together wrong. We have a lot of fun, a lot of sex, and a lot of laughs together but that all fades. What happens when she wants more? What happens when she wants to take trips or do getaways?
I would have to work extra to take her on a vacation. I have a house, in need of all sorts of shit, strapped to my back. There’s no way I could take her to Paris or for long walks in Italy.
Josie’s words come back to haunt me.
Was it fair for you to expect me to put everything on hold until you got yourself together or your money was right again? When were we going to travel and do couples things like we used to?
If I was holding back Josie, who made the same as me at the day job, what is Saona thinking? A woman like her is not used to slumming it. But she did. For me. That’s how I know she cares. She’s amazing, gorgeous, smart and rich. What can I offer her? It’s not fair for me to hold her back.
What the hell am I thinking right now?
The car comes to a stop and I give the driver a tip. We enter the building quickly, move through her nice lobby, and jump in the elevator.
