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“What can I do? What do I have to do? I’ll do anything.” The desperation in his voice, the fear in his eyes–it’s truly more than I can bear.
“You don’t have to do anything,” I say. “I’m yours. I never stopped being yours.”
“What are you saying?” He seems hesitant to believe it could possibly be that easy.
“I’m saying I love you. I’m saying that I’m lost without you. I’m saying that I want our life back. I wantyouback. I want it all. Everything has felt so empty, so wrong, since you left. There’s been this constant weight on my chest making it almost impossible to breathe.”
“I know the feeling,” he murmurs, capturing my chin between his thumb and index finger as his dark eyes bore into mine. “I meant what I said. I’m prepared to walk away from music if that’s what it takes. I can’t lose you.”
“You aren’t going to lose me. Not again. And you’re not giving up music. Music is who you are and I love who you are.”
“But I already lost you once to it.”
“It’s not the music or the fame that drove me away. It was the fear that I was being left behind.”
“It’s not possible for you to be left behind when you’re always right in front of me. You are my number one, Lennon. Even when I was too stupid to see I wasn’t putting you first like I should have been, you’ve always been my top priority.”
“I separated myself from your world. No matter how many times you tried to bring me into the game, I insisted on staying on the sidelines. I was afraid. Afraid that if I let myself into your world I’d have nothing left of myself to come back to when it all fell apart. I punished you for what Gage did to me in my past. I had convinced myself that nothing this good ever lasts and I think I was waiting for the other shoe to drop all along. I had a really hard time believing that I could hold your interest forever. You’re Hudson James. A man who can have any woman he wants. How could I possibly compete with that?”
“By being the only woman I see. Because that’s what you are. You’re it for me, Lennon Claire. I think I knew it the moment you slid up next to me at that bar nearly six years ago.”
“You just felt indebted to me for not letting you die of thirst,” I tease, feeling the heaviness evaporate into the warm summer breeze that dances around us.
“Well that was appreciated too.” He smiles for the first time since I sat down and I swear the action sends a whoosh through my stomach that mirrors the waves crashing against the sand.
“I need to be a part of your world, Hudson.”
“Youaremy world.”
“But I mean I need to beinit. Not standing off to the side. I want you to get to live your dream every day for the rest of your life. I want you to share your magic with the world. Record records, tour every inch of this earth. I want you to do it all. And I want to be right there by your side as you do.”
“Are you saying...”
“Where you go I go. My home isn’t here. It’s with you. I don’t care where we are or what we’re doing, as long as we’re together. You’ve given us a hundred percent from day one. It’s about time I do the same.”
“What about your job? I know how much it means to you.”
“It doesn’t mean as much to me as you do. I have enough money saved to get me through for a while and I can always come back if I need to.”
“You won’t need to come back to it.”
“Who knows, maybe one day when things settle down I’ll be able to work for myself.”
“You’re sure about this?”
“I’ve never been more sure about anything in my entire life. I love—”
His lips are on mine before I get out another word. His hand snakes around the back of my neck as he kisses me hard and deep, his tongue sliding against mine sends my entire body swirling in an inferno.
“I’ve missed you so much.” He shifts, leaving the bottle of tequila abandoned on the sand as he presses into me.
I take his weight, relishing how good it feels when he’s settled over me, the powdery sand soft against my back.
“I’ve missed you,” I gasp, instantly reaching for his shirt which comes off seconds later.
“I love you. I love you so fucking much.” His mouth against my neck, his lips dancing around my pulse, up my jaw, and along the sensitive skin below my ear.
“I love you.”
